Always Yours.

2010-06-08T14:47:00.003+08:00

I am back to blogging !

It has been super super long since i last blogged.

And wat's e reason behind it ?

No time ? i guess so.

I wonder if there is still anyone viewing my blog anot lol.

But tt is nt important , i come here jus to pen down my thoughts .

Time files.

It has been 85days since e day my beloved grandpa left me.

It has been hard for my granny and my family.

I can say tt i still live on , working , playing , slping and eating.

But as often as it is , i still miss him , dream of him.

I hasnt really accepted he is gone forever.

I still hoping to see him again , touch him again.

Actually i muz say , i regretted , i feel remorseful.

There are days where i can keep him company , visit him more , spend more time wif him.

Yet , i didnt.

I used to think tt he is still young , i still have alot of time wif him.

So i nv cherish , i realli nv cherish.

I spend more time on maple den on him.

I learnt from this painful incident , which lead me to cherish my family more.

I still nv really visit my grandmum , i only spend more time wif my family members.

Grandmum ? I wish to keep her company but.. i don like going over to her place.

My uncle's family is living wif my granny and youngest uncle.

Whenever i go down , i realised i will only get to see my granny doin e house chores , or even more busy den usual cos i m there.

I wanted to help but as u noe la , my granny surely wont wan me to help her much.

So wat is e point !!

Going down to see her busy , feeling heartache for her , nt being able to chat wif her much too.

I wanna to bring her over to my place for 1-2days , to help her relax , allow her to have some time to watch tv , being served by us and can get to gossip wif my mother. But is she willing to come over ? haiis.

Life hasnt been really gd for me.

2010-04-19T15:27:00.002+08:00

Isnt he cute ?

It is really ur smile tt brighten up my day and even my life.

He seemed sleepy isnt it?

Uploaded pictures of Ah Boy taken at northpoint top floor playground.

It has been sometime we nv really meet up wif him due to some family matters.
And this afternoon when i was still sleeping soundly in my room , mum came in , waking me and mei up , telling us tt Ah boy is coming over to our place.
He told his mum he missed us and make noise about wanna come find us, cant believe it.
So his parents drive him over to my place.
He ar .. He is forever e VIP in my family.
Hearing tt he is coming , we can giv up our sleep for him. We drag ourselves out of our cosy bed and hurry wash up b4 bringing him out to Northpoint.
Mum , Mei , Ah boy , BF and I , we all had macdonald , it was decided by ah boy.
He was telling me tt he wanna to eat macdonalds when we asked him wat he wants to have.
We got him happy meal and he was happy to have tt toy in his hands.

After our lunch , intend to bring him for a movie but due to nt enough time , we cancelled it.
We went up to e 2nd storey , intending to shop for my sis's school shoes but ah boy insisted on going up to 3rd storey and then following e 4th storey.
We were wondering where he is bringing us to ?

Upon reaching , we realised tt it was a playground , juz like e one he used to go at sembawang shopping centre.
He seemed so happy , wanting to go and play , mum didnt realli agree to it but i juz simply hack care , i bring him in and watch him play.
Took some pictures too. He was realli enjoying , when i see e smile on his face i feel it is worthy even though i m feeling tired and hot.
Finally managed to get him away from e playground by telling him we are going to e timezone (arcade).
We top up at least up to $15 and played games wif him , he was totally addicted to e throwing of balls game , we played wif him for more den 5rounds and we are complaining of shoulder ache while he is still happily enjoying hahas !
Surprisely , Dar who was wif us , he didnt complain a word.
I thought he will feel bored and complain but he didnt.

After all e games , we changed a few toys for him and off we go for our shopping =)
He saw some kids riding on a car , he was looking at it and i noe he wanna to sit one too. I got him one and he was happily riding on it , juz for $3.50/hr , he don have to walk and he wont feel bored when we are shopping , so.. y not?
However , i guess cos he was happily sitting on it , enjoying being push around , he looked so tired. I could feel his tiredness but y didnt he speak a word ? i then ask him to lie down and take a rest if he is tired. Juz after i finished my sentence , i saw him fast asleep.

I bet he had a tired day , after a rest in his toy car , we went for our dinner. Simple dinner but wif a lot of laughters.
Dar and i went off earlier after e dinner , i told ah boy i m going off and he was looking sad. He even asked me to bring him along , i feel so sad. Managed to convinced him , i went off after kissing him.

We will meet up again soon , my boy.
I had promised him a trip to Zoo after his holidays in korean. =)

2010-04-12T15:38:00.003+08:00

Oh ya !

I forgotten to upload these 2 important pictures.

These neoprints are my request to Dar.

And he "er hua bu shou" , pei me take pic le !

Muacks , Dar.

2010-03-29T16:19:00.011+08:00

~My once and only 21st birthday celebration & pictures ~

This post i have been wanting to finish it and have it blogged but i have no time for it =x
It has been sometimes i nv blog , realli lazy to log in though i have alot to pen down.

My 21st birthday , a simple but happy bday for me.

I woke up early morning to meet my dearest fren Chai Gek for lunch.
We had pasta mania , and well i was realli surprised and touched by her!
She had things planned out , requested us to separate our orders and bills , asked me to go back to e seats first instead of waiting for her.
Well , i did wat she said.

After finishing our lunch , i told her i have gtg.
She asked me to wait awhile and she took out present from her bag.
Tt is normal , nt surprising but later on she asked me to wait a little while more and she put her hand inside her bag as though she is fnding something.
Den i wondered , she is giving me another present ? O.o

All of a sudden , i heard a soft voice coming from my back , singing happy bday song.
I turned around and i realised she get me a small birthday cake.
At e moment , i was stunned , surprised and touched too.
I smile brightly , i muz say tt is e best smile i ever had after my grandfather's death.
Thanks , my dear fren , i m really contented. =)

Den..
I went to work as usual , knock off on time and went for movie wif Dar.
Dar watched Alice In Wonderland 3D wif me , we planned to have dinner at Fish & Co after tt but due to mum's plan of celebrating for me , we went home after e movie.
But b4 we head home , after e movie i asked Dar where is my present , i knew he didnt get anything for me and e reason will be becos he donno wat i want.
Dar ar.. he's forever like this de, he perfer to ask me wat i like and buy it on e spot for me rather den buying something and end up i don like it.
So we went shopping and i had my eyes on a bracklet and a ring and Dar bought them for me =)

Back home , we had a simple dinner and took a family pic and another pic wif Dar.
After e celebration , we set up mahjong table lol and spent our night playing mahjong.

And on this special day , my frens in maple remembered it was my birthday too.
A few of them , one by one , mega-ing and pm-ing wishing me happy birthday.
They are really all my darlings =)

Thanks Chai Gek , Dar , My Family and Maple Friends for everything.
You guys make my birthday a happy one. =)

But still deep inside me , i was thinking of u , missing u so badly , hoping for u to be here to celebrate my bday wif me , were u there when i was cutting e cake ?

2010-03-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

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2010-03-23T12:54:00.007+08:00

Our Family Picture

Years ago , we went to Genting as a family. This picture was taken there. I was still in Primary School. I took this out from photo album years ago , cut it to e size tt can fit in my purse. Now, whenever i miss u , i will look at it.

You also keep e pic of all ur grandchildren and u in a frame , hanged it on e wall inside ur room. I wondered do u always look at it in e past whenever u miss us ?

The last time i ever talk to you , seeing u smile was on e day tai ma chu bing, saturday. I remebered sitting wif u in e same table. I m glad i get to eat wif u tt day. I didnt noe it will be e last time i can have my dinner wif u. Who will have thought of tt ?

I used to think u can live till at least 80yr old, used to think tt u will get to attend my wedding , drink tea and even get to see ur great grand children , carry them and watch them grow. Never did i expect u to leave us so early.

Your days in the ICU, i watched u improving a little everyday. You pulled through e 50% rate operation on friday night.

Saturday ~ We saw u being able to breathe on ur own , move ur head and open up ur mouth.Sunday ~ We saw u able to swallow ur saliva. Monday ~ We heard from nurse tt u opened up ur eyes though closes it immediately. Tuesday ~ Heart able to function already though ur mind don wan it to pump blood. How come u suddenly give up and leave us?

You left us all of a sudden, leaving us with memories only. We didnt get to see u e last time , talk to u e last time and hug u touch u for e veri last time.

To me , this whole episode is juz like a dream. But i wake up facing reality , e fact tt u are gone and will never be back. Everyday i feel like u are juz away from us for a trip , donno when u will be back but we are waiting. But at times , when i m fully awake , i face e fact tt u wont be back anymore. It is so unbearable.

Counting down 2days , and it is my 21st birthday. Months ago , i was still planning of getting a chalet no matter wat. I wanna to invite u and grandma , our big family over and relax , get away from e city and enjoy. But cos of tai ma's death , mum ask me to go on low profile. I still thought tt even there is no chalet , i still gt my bf , family , u and ah ma celebrating wif me. I noe u will celebrate wif me , like u did for almost every year. Never did i expect u nt being able to celebrate wif me this yr. Is my 21st birthday leh , hw can u miss it !! I wanna nth but YOU, if i can chose.

Talking abt birthday, i still thinking of getting a birthday cake this year, a very big and nice one for ur 70th birthday , cos mum told me chinese don celebrate 69th , will make it to 70th. I give u an ang bao only for last yr's birthday , but i buy ah ma a durian cake on her bday. So i thought of getting a big shou cake for u this year. Once again , never did i expect u nt being able to celebrate ur bday wif us this yr, nt able to see wat i have planned for u.

Why must u go and where are u now ? I have been telling myself u are nt coming back anymore but y cant i face e facts ! U are still alive in my heart , but i cant get to see u again , cant get to hold u again. All u left for us are memories only.

On e 7th night , did u come back to see us? I was told by didi and meimei tt in e middle of e night there is an insect , suddenly flying out from e back of e television , flying around in e room and stopped beside xj's laptop. Following that , flying towards e bed i m slping on and stopped there for sometime. Was it u , ah gong ? Was it u ? tt come back to see us ? I m sry if is u , cos i was realli slping soundly tt night.

Ah ma told me u nv go back and see u , did u realli nv go back ? Or it's juz tt u went back but u nv touch e bowl of rice ah ma left on e table? Did u also turn into an insect and fly in to see them like hw u came back to see us? I have many unanswered questions , can u ans me ?

Everything ended. U left us , we let go of u too. Though we cant bear each other , but we are apart. And wat can we live on wif are memories. Like i promised u in e hospital , i will take care of ah ma , but also at e same time i hope u will promise me too , tt u will go back and visit ah ma often , best is let her dream of u , tell her to live on happily.

I miss u , i really do.

Can u come to my dream tonight ?

2010-03-12T12:15:00.003+08:00

Time : 12:13pm
Venue : SGH (Singapore General Hospital)

I m right nw in e hospital, with veri complicated feelings in me.
I feel veri bad inside , but i donno hw to feel better.
Therefore , i chose to pen down my feelings here.

I have realli nt been slping well for past nights.
I m really missing him so much.
The days we had , the moments we spend together.
Whenever i closed my eyes , i think of u, e image of u smiling happily.
I used to tell u hw fat i was and u will always say "fei cai you fu qi".
I m nw still fat fat , i listen to u , i nv realli diet.
So nw can u also listen to me , don ever leave us.

We still have alot of things which we havent do tgt.
We still need alot of time to accomplish wat we wan to.
It has been long since we gather tgt at ur hse and have dinner.
Do u noe i m waiting , all of us are waiting for ur recovery and have a dinner tgt at ur place?
Ur house used to be filled with noise but nw it is so quiet.
U have nt been taking any food for days , don u wish to eat some home cooked food ?

2010-03-08T15:04:00.003+08:00

Ah Gong , Wake up !
You have been slping for too long.

You were fine last sat when i had dinner wif u after tai ma's funeral.
You still ask xin lei to get "niao dan" for ah ma to eat.
You were drinking e cup of ice water i have got for u.
You were even asking me to eat more.

But why are u lying in e hospital now for days ?
Are u tired? Ah gong.
Do u noe we are all so sad and worried for u since friday?
Do u noe hw pain it is for us to see u lying inside ICU ?
Do u noe that all of us here are waiting for u to open up ur eyes ?
We are , waiting.
We love u so much tt we don wan u to leave us.
We don allow u to. u have no choice.
We don allow to slp anymore !!!

Ah Gong
Can u hear me everytime when i speak to u from my heart?
I have been asking u to wake up.
U have miss out alot these few days.
Ur favourite shows, ur 4D days and alot more.
Can u hear ah ma is crying everyday ?

2010-02-25T15:19:00.005+08:00

Dearest Great-Grandma

U will always be remembered by me

23rd February 2010

Great Grandma passed away in her sleep in the morning.

I received a call from grandpa at 8:50-8:55am.

I knew something bad happened when i saw e no. on e caller ID.

Mum was abt to cry when she was e phone wif grandpa.

Dad woke up in a shock when mum tries to wake him up.

Mei thought i was joking wif her when i wake her up and told her abt e news.

ASAP , we changed and rushed down to TTS Hospital.

We waited so longgggg for a cab.

Half way through , Dad's hp keep ringing.

One after another.

And mum , was there so anxious , keep asking who called.

She was so afraid to hear dad's hp ringing cos it might juz be a call from grandpa wif a bad news.

However, e worst still came.

Dad answered a call from grandpa and say tt tai ma already gone.

Mum dropped her tears when she heard abt e news.

Mum almost quarrelled wif Dad for e idea of going to central to flag a cab would be easier.

I noe wat is going on.

Mum is feeling sad for nt being able to see tai ma b4 she's gone.

Finally , we reached hospital , skipped e registration but still they insists to take down IC.

That realli takes up alot of TIME.

Walking towards tai ma's bed, i was afraid to see her cos i noe i will cry and i hated to cry infront of anyone !

We took a look at her , oh my , she looks as though she is slping , i donno wat i can do and e veri last thing i noe i could do was to talk to her e last time , hopefully her soul is still in e room and could hear my words.

I stood beside her bed , hold her hands , it was already cold. Saw blueblack on her hands i feel so heartache. Then i speak to her in my heart , my last time talking to her.

" Tai Ma , don worry abt us. U rest in peace , peacefully go ba , go meet tai gong and ur son."

This was wat i told her. I feel she could hear me.

Dad walked off after taking a look at her , i turned over to look at my dad , tears was rolling down his face.

Mum and Mei cried too. I almost but i managed to hold it back.

I feel so so bad for nt making e trip down to see tai ma on monday.

Y am i always so lazy ? y didnt i go visit her ?

I always take her for granted when she is there for us.

I would have done better , i should have.

I should have visit her more often , keep her company.

I know she will feel happy if i were to visit her more often , talk to her , listen to her.

But i didnt.

However when i think again , i feel i m so much better comapred to others.

(Don wanna mention names , they noe who they are)

They make her feel so sad and ignores her time to time.

Nw tt she is gone , they cried.

I noe i m nt right to comment but i juz wanna pen down my thoughts.

Wat's e point to cry nw when u don even care abt her when she is around?

Anyway , i didnt managed to get away from work.

So i missed out e ceremony of putting Tai ma into e coffin.

Tai ma , i m sry for nt being there.

I hope u understand.

And lastly , i love u.

My parents and family loves u too.

U noe hw sad my dad was ? u saw it?

U saw hw sad my granny was ?

I hope ur departure was a happy one , cos u can finally end ur sufferings and don need to see those conflict but somehw we are all feeling sad and painful tt u're gone.

We all loves u , u noe who we are.

And i hope u can realli have a reunion wif tai gong and ur son , have u seen them?

Muacks, My Tai ma.

2010-02-03T15:37:00.002+08:00

Tiring week , i m always complaining tt i m tired lol .
But i guess after this week i wont be so tired anymore , my maple 3x exp is finally ending on this friday.

Well , recently so many happy events happening around me.
I suddenly feel all my wishes has come true and i m so xingfu !
My dar nwadays doting me more and more , no quarrels only sweetness. =)
1 happy thing tt realli worth celebrating for , was tt my parents have finally accepted my bf.
They used to don realli like e idea of us being tgt , but for yrs we have nv separate , stay tgt and nw finally i can loudly say , HE IS MY BF infront of all lol.

Sunday , Dar came to my hse for mahjong session wif my mei and mum of cos.
Then i was asked to play along due to lack of players =/
After which , Dar was supposed to go back camp to celebrate his fren's birthday but cos my mum asking him to stay overnight , he stayed.
And Dad , after a long day of work , he even buy us dinner or so called supper already cos it was after 12am lol.
Dad reached home , saw Dar but nv say anything.
His fierce face caused Dar nt realli dare to talk.
Stayed up late till 3am wif Dar infront of e computer , chatting while he is doin his NS stuff online.
Woke up early 5am to wake him up and open door for him LOL.
Dar sent me sms asking me nt to worry and slp tight when he reached camp , so sweet of him , wat more can i ask for =)

Morning , i wake up hearing from mum tt my dad talk alot last night.
Asking if my mum gt giv Dar e pineapples tarts she handmade and alot more.
I noe my dad is nice , though he seldom talk but he is actually keeping all inside his heart.
And i noe , he nv objects me and Dar being tgt , he even show concern to Dar juz tt he nv mention out =)

I was realli happy , this is wat i longed for , but nw when i get it , y am i still thinking of something else , someone else ?
I must get over it and be happy , afterall, me and Dar have overcome all obstacles!!!
I wish things will stay this way forever.

2010-01-28T12:16:00.004+08:00

Handmade Pineapple Tarts for Sales !

1 bottle for $15 only.

2010-01-22T16:18:00.005+08:00

It is nw 4:15pm.
Half an hour more , hopefully i can get to go hm.

I m so so tired.
Woke up damn early ytd morning to go work, changed to morning cos i m going for Dar's ORD parade in e night.
End up , realli so slpy when i reached office and well , nth to do yet cant slp =.=

ORD parade !!!
Started at 6:30pm , i was late =x
Reached 6:40pm they already marched in ><>

And well so many platoon so many soliders , i had a hard time finding where is my Dar.
End up managed to see him standing in e 1st row.
Parade end off faster den i expected.
We didnt take any pics !!!! kao , he went str8 to bath after e parade end and giving me a call tt he go bath le ask me wait zzz ! Hw can nv take a single pic , sad si.

As i was waiting for him to come down, i walked around e area and thinking back e day he went in. It was 1year 10months ago , but nw to me , it was like juz a few week ago when i send him in bedok camp. Recalling back e day i bid him gdbye and board e bus , i was like about to cry , cos 2years is so longgggg and he is realli a lazy bum hw can he get used to e life inside ? But, nw finally , e days are over and nw he is ord.

Suddenly got so much kan chu.
Thinking inside my mind , he realli change alot during his NS.
And well , i realli walk so far wif him tgt , hw could i bear to leave him one day?

The love might fade off abit
The excitement might nt be there
The honeymoon period might be over but still we are tgt like a pair of lovebirds.
Will this last forever?

2010-01-19T15:55:00.002+08:00

WA realli so long and so much to update but i m always lazy to.
or should i put it as " no time to" ?

Recently i m realli busy like hell.
Other den maple still maple and of cos i spend e rest of my free time pei my Dar.
Intend to stop mapling or cut down e time i spend in maple.
But end up i buy a 1month coupon to train for 4hrs each day for 1whole month.
WHY ?
Cos i wanna finish my mapel journey.
I wanna reach lvl 200 so from then on i realli can on maple to juz chat and walk around =)
Current lvl 191 , 9 more to go !
Hopefully i can make it on 10th Feb, to ji nian my Dar ORD lo.

My last weekends ?
I rmb going to lan wif my maple darling Ruby.
Learned L4D from her and omg it was fun , nt as sian as i thought it would be.
And i realli enjoyed it so much tt i wanted more even i m feeling giddy LOL.
So sad Dar nv join me , he went to fren's birthday chalet.

Sunday leh.. Tiring and Sian
Tired cos e previous night i played maple till 6am while sian cos e next day is monday =.=
Went over to Jurong Point to meet Dar for shopping !! ~ Love it.
So long he nv pei me go shopping le , wat a lazy bum !
Finally i get myself a new purse , after looking for so long.
This time round is Dar chose for me de.
Not bad , whatever he buy for me i will juz like it =)
Walking around , i saw a big dog bear , Dar saw me looking at it for sometime and asked me if i wan it mah ? I think quite long b4 answering him tt i wan it.
And well he of cos buy it for me la and carry it for me
Muacks Dar.

Every little thing u do for me , i will always rmb it deep in my mind.
I love it when we are so loving , when we realli giv in to each other.
And i enjoyed it when u bicker wif me.

I m looking forward for ur ORD parade !!!

2010-01-12T16:12:00.006+08:00

Pictures taken by Qi Xuan on xmas night.

Qi Xuan wif my Dar's gift.
William wif my gift.

Nelson wif Jason's gift.

ME wif Jin De's gift.

Kelvin aka Newspaper boy wif william's gift.

Jin De wif Newspaper boy's gift.

Jason wif Kit's present.

Kit wif Nelson's present.

Dar wif Fion's present.Fion wif Chai Gek's present.Chai Gek wif Qi Xuan's present.

I bet everyone is happy wif their present bah except kit =x

When he noe he tio nelson's presnent , he was like wa lao !!!

Reason : He accompanied nelson to buy e present and he was saying tt he don wan to kana this present i think. Hahas.

Anyway , i bet everyone enjoyed this xmas celebration. =)

2010-01-11T16:57:00.002+08:00

WELCOME YEAR 2010

whenever i blog , i will say it has been so long since my last post.
But it was realli true.
Ending of year 2009 i was realli busy wif my work.

Well, in this brand new yr i wish all of u Happy New Year.
New Year , New Hope , New Start.
But i hasnt think of wat are my aims for the year.
Only aim is to level 200 in maple on 10th of Feb.
It is juz start of 2010 only , but i m already so tired.
Work , Maple and Dramas are the causes of my tiredness. LOL

Anyway , my xmas and new yr celebration was a fun one , wif Bf and frens.
On the 24th Dec 09 , i went for my Ah Hai Shu Shu's wedding.
Finally he get himself a wife , when will be my Xiao Shu's turn leh ?
Xiao Shu ~ i m still waiting for ur wedding , i wanna to sit at VIP table =x

It was a nice wedding but it ends at 11pm plus and well i thought i m definately late for my gathering wif frens. But luckily , my xiao shu drives me to Nelson's hse.
Managed to reach b4 12am and we had our xchanging of presents.
I will upload e pics taken for each of us who are invloved soon. ASAP =x
After xchanging of presents , Qi Xuan prepared a game for us somehw nth to play juz draw cards and e rest will leave to fate to decide.

The game goes like this : u will draw cards , and whichever card tt u draw will have a meaning behind it , be it punishment , nth or others.
Some of e cards u chose might be punishment but nt for urself , can pass to soemone else to cover for u LOL.
And well e punishment is also decided by drawing of cards.
The game ended at 3am near 4am and we headed to mac for breakfast.
But somehow i feel like eating ba chor mee.
So i nv had any mac breakfast.
We guys parted at outside mac.
Left wif some of us, we headed to have e nicest ba chor mee !!
It jzu taste so nice LOL. Too bad Dar was nt wif me.
Oh ya he was feeling so hot and had a headache after all e drinking.
And so bad of me , he drink 1cup for me yet i left him alone at nel's hse slping while i went and enjoy my ba chor mee =x

Back nel's hse after i filled my stomach.
I bet i sure can slp well later on.
Took cab home wif Jin De , walking on e street bare foot. T_T due to e stupid shoes tt caused my leg to have blister.
Reached home at 6am plus and off i go to my la la land.
And tt is how i spend my christmas eve/ day for 2009.

New year celebration shall be post in next post =)

2009-12-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

wat's wrong wif me ?

Stayed up till at least 3am everyday before going to bed.
And worst thing is i couldnt get to slp.
Den next day i will feel so.. tired, cant get myself off my cosy bed.
Especially today , i drag myself out of my bed juz becos i gt to go work !!!
Intend to get off de but last min boss ask me to do something.
And well..
I m back to office yet my boss is nt coming !!! ZZZ
Finished e documents request in 5min time
But need to spend e rest of my time in office doin nth.
Not going to online maple , i have already tempo quit due to ....
So well , i come and blog while waiting for my drama to load.

Cruel Temptation !!! <--- nice show
Have been chasing after this show everyday.
How sad it was for tt gal who was betrayed by her husband.
She went through alot juz for e sake of taking revenge, wanted to make e bitch who snatch her husband to noe hw it feels when ur husband is being seduced by another woman !
Interesting isnt it?
But somehw i think in e later part of e show she giv up her revenge.
Interested isnt it?
Go and watch ~

Christmas eve , tonight.
But i have to attend a wedding b4 meeting my frens for games !
Sad tt i missed out e intersting part of e wedding like the tea ceremony and all.
Well , i shall stop here , my drama is ready to watch =p

2009-12-15T23:30:00.006+08:00

Bored !!!

Now is only 10:30 pm , cant get to slp but there is nth for me to do.
Dar playing mahjong wif his frens in camp and well he is enjoying so i didnt wan to disturb him.
Maple , is nt a choice for me to choose nw , i donno wat to do even if i log in nw.
In e end , i choose to come my blog to rant !!!

He is back.
I wanted to say hi to him but lacked e courage to.
But when i finally gather e courage and called him
E result was better den i expected?
Heard my voice and hanged up
I thought he will nt answer at all.
Surprised when i noe abt his return.
Happy to see tt he is getting on well.
Wondered if he still hates me ?
But 1 thing i can assure is..
Strangers we are to be since tt day and forever we will be?
I juz want to say , i realli don wish to hurt u.
U are e biggest regret to me.

Thinking of my grandparents , it has been a long time since i visited them.
This friday i will realli have to go down to spend time wif them le?
Especially is my grandfather's birthday.
Wondering wat shall i get him?
Cake or Hongbao ?
Guess hongbao will be a better choice =x $$$
3more days to weekends !!!
Jiayou ~

2009-12-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

Has been long i haven update my blog =p
Too much to update le ba ?
Same old me , weekdays working , weekends boyfriend !

Some weeks ago , i meet up wif old frens for gathering.
Meet up with Nelson and Gf, Huikit , ChaiGek and Fion.
Had movie and dinner tgt.
However e movie was like... zzz !
Nt realli nice but somehw better den e one i went ytd
Guys don watch " Dont Look Back" !!!
Terrible show , first time i gt e feeling of wanting to walk out of e theatre half way through e movie.
Ranking : 0/5

Life for me has been boring , Dar is on a 1month duty and couldnt book out on weekends.
Looking forward for Christmas and New yr P.H !!

2009-11-20T16:43:00.003+08:00

Again , i nv blog for weeks.

Had been busy over work , bf and maple. =p

Dar finally returned from Australia , his veri last trip in NS.
After e torturing 3weeks , i was so excited to call him once he arrived in sg.
However , i was too tired =x had a nap at 2am , waking up at 4am calling him , but to no valid.
Guess he still in plane?
Somehow later on , i fall asleep again.
Waking up wif a call from him , we agreed to meet up on thur , cos he arriving in sg at 4am.
And well , he need to catch some slp ba , b4 meeting me?
I didnt get my things prepared e night b4 , Dar phoned me at early 6am , asking me to meet up wif him.
Quite surprising , though i was tired , i nv reject him , nv will i. =)

Prepared everything in 30min , went off to Woodlands to meet him. He look abit surprised when he saw me , cos of my new hairstyle? or cos i've slimed down ? LOL

After all e talking , we spend e whole day going around at Bugis.
And well , i was lucky to get off on Thur & Fri due to other countries government is coming to visit my workplace.

Thursday , Friday , Saturday and Sunday. Whole of tt 4days we had alot of fun , of cos Dar's pocket also gt a hole inside it.
Sweetest me , i accompanied Dar to Chambers for his favourite Lan Gaming !!! DOTA !!

His off are over , nw back in camp , guess he muz be slping nw , 4:56pm.
Tml is our day again but sadly , he kana Guard Duty.
Tml will be a boring saturday =(

2009-11-10T16:18:00.000+08:00

Finally 3weeks has passed.
Dar is finally coming back e day after tml.
Dar has left e camp , having his R&R for today and tml.
While me , patheric enough , i forgot to bring my internet connection to work today !!
How boring it is , especially when i have nth much to do for today.
I spend e time... playing computer games.
Luckily , i gt Dar to sms wif.

Every trip u went , i was always there waiting for ur return.
Every trip u went , is always so long.
Luckily , this is e last trip u will be going for NS.
I hope in future , every trip tt u will be going , is wif me.
Thinking back , i rmb e first trip u went was brunei.
On e day when u return , i was so happy but due to e reason tt i m late, u end up looking angry when we meet.
2nd trip to taiwan , it was a two weeks trip.
U return to sg in e night , i waited for u downstairs ur hse for quite sometime.
When u drop off from e cab , u surprise me wif e gifts u brought for me.
Now, i wonder , this time round when u return from Australia , hw would it be?
I don need surprises , juz a kiss from u will be enough =)

2009-11-03T14:20:00.004+08:00

Uploaded some pictures of boyboy. Taken sometime ago at my place.

Boyboy was watching cartoon show wif my sister.

Ah Boy purposely make a few funny faces to make us laugh.

He had a fun time playing wif my sister. He will purposely bully my sis and like to see her crying, while he will be laughing away. Ahboy , u r still so cute and playful.

Another funny expression of him !

Knowing tt we are taking pic of him , he purposely use his thomas & frens crayons to cover his face.

2009-11-03T13:56:00.002+08:00

Oh no.. It is only tuesday.
Bored , bored , bored !!

I m right nw in office , blogging despite i gt work to do.
Weekends without bf, i get my mum and sis to go shopping wif me hahas.
Went to causeway point on sunday , spend over $100 on facial products.
Is time i need to do something to protect my face.
Looking back at e pictures and neo prints i took wif bf a few yrs back , I realised i look.. more old and haggard nw.
Dark rings , yellowish skin .. OMG.
Too much mapling was e cause , i guess ?
I had been training Dar and my characters for a month in maple with 2x 10-2am.
Now tt it finally ends , i m going to take a break from tt stupid maplestory !!
I tried to slp early last night , off maple and com at 10:15pm , get on bed at 1030.
However, i toss here and there , unable to get to slp.
End up , 12am , i get off my bed and watch tv zzz.
Guess i m too used to slp late in e night ?

Heard from aunt today tt my boss ( who is my uncle ) will be going on a holiday from 15th -18th nov , and well .. i guess i might have tt few days off as well cos no one is available to drive me in to e site. Praying hard* for tt few days break , pls !

These few days will be damn sian , Dar is away on a field camp tt will last for 4-5days.
Another 9 more days and he will be back =]

2009-10-28T15:50:00.006+08:00

Peanuts Ice Kacang , nice to eat this after e spicy stingray !!

Stingray !! My favourite !

Look , so nice , feel like eating again when i uploaded this pic.

Dar & I went to Chomp Chomp twice b4 he leave for training at Australia. He know tt i loved stingray !! Everytime we go , sure order stingray. Dar will also eat stingray wif me depsite e fact tt e stingray is spicy for him. $2 big sized sugar cane is a must whenever we go there. Dar cant tahan spicy food , will tend to drink alot when he cant take it.

Ytd , in msn , i was telling Dar tt i feel like eating stingray and i m bored !!! He then asked me to go shopping. He say is okay even if i spend away all my pay. Hahas. So sweet of him. We don realli get to chat for long , due to e queue behind him !! They have to queue to use the computers down there , and there is only 3 COMPUTERS !! In order nt to miss the chance to talk wif Dar , i on my msn all day even when i m slping , except for e 2hrs of journey to and back from work. Dar was worried abt his family too. Wooo.. Dar saw shooting stars over there. I asked him y didnt u make a wish ? He repiled : How to make a wish ? No time leh , 3 sec after i saw , gone. LOL !! True also. But he mention it is veri nice. I hope i will get to see tt too one day.

15days to go. How i wish tml is 12th Nov.

2009-10-28T15:29:00.000+08:00

Took this pic when he didnt notice !! If he noe i m gonna take pic of him , he will "siam" !

See , Dar purposely make a stupid face cos he noe tt i m going to take pic of him!

Lots lots of pictures !! Dar says tt i can be a "mei shi jia" cos i always eat and take pics of food !!

Who say so ? I take more pics of him lo !! OMG ! Dar's herbal donno wat chicken was indeed nice !! Mine ... Sucks sucks sucks , it;s like i m eating rubber !! Btw this restaurant is Vittles if i nv spell it wrongly =x located at Sembawang Road juz beside Chambers ! Nice place to go for lunch or dinner after lan- gaming =]

2009-10-27T16:14:00.008+08:00

A very late post !

10th October 2009 , First time i get to go see the environment tt my Dar had been living in for 1years plus. How did i get this chance ?

Dar's camp held an event , Road March ! Dar has to write 24km if i m nt wrong =x
We went there early morning at 5am + and reached at 7am. There are all divided into groups.
Dar's group starts its road march at 8:25am. I was so bored , wondering y his sir ask his family members to come for such an event , feel heartache too when we see our loved one walking and sweating. I was told by Dar , i will need to see him passing by me 4times b4 he can reach e finishing point.

And well , the 4th time i see was at 10:14am , imagine hw long e distance is to take him 1hr + to complete e march ! At his last lap , i managed to take a pic of him walking in e rain. It happens to rain when he was at his last lap.

After e road march , Dar came down to find me after he bathe. We had some snacks before heading to his bunk. I waas so happy , anxious and surprised when i was told by Dar tt i could go up his bunk to have a look. First time i get to see e environment and bed tt my Dar has been living in for past 1yr. It looks exactly like e camp we used to stay when we were in sec sch's ncc.
We then slack in e room wif his frens as well , i even climb up to his bed and try to slp on it. Not bad but still nt as gd as my hse bed afterall here is Camp leh !

E whole event finally come to an end at 12+ , afternoon le !!
Despite all the waiting , i get to see Dar's living environment in camp , so.. it is still worth it.

Below are some pics taken inside his buck and at his camp. Take a look at e environment every guy will have to live in when u r serving ur ns !!

A view from Dar's room window.

Hahas, Dar's bed ! He is e only one person who slp in a double decker. Dar says tt it is cooler to slp at e top , and he even install a fan there, nt bad right?

Look comfortable ? Beautiful bedsheet , isnt it? Chosen by me .. and Dar of cos.

Bored , so i took a pic ~ somehw ~

Dar , u look so tired and shag in this pic !! u seemed to be dragging ur legs to walk LOL.

Anyway , Well done , u finished e 24km Road March ! Muacks.

Happy Birthday , My Boy.

2009-10-26T16:33:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday , My Boy ~ 3years old.

Yesterday was a tired day for me , went to boyboy's house for his bday celebration.
My present for him are a collection of Thomas & Friends toys.
Juz a few of them but he seemed anxious to open e present , hahas.

Boy has 3 birthday cakes for him to blow off e candles and to cut e cakes.
We left ah boy's hse at around 3pm + , bringing him along wif us, he wanted to go shopping !! LOL.
First time i heard from a little boy saying : " I wan to go shopping".
He is realli so cute.
We bring him to Northpoint instead of Sunplaza , went to Timezone for some games.
Such gd boy he is , he ask us to go home after we exchange e tickets .
After timezone , we headed home.
He lie on my parent's bed , wif blanklet and tigger to hug, listening to songs , nt kids songs but hokkien songs , tt was wat he used to listen to b4 going to bed in e past at my place.
And well , he still rmb it despite e fact tt we already nv babysit him for 1 year.

After a nap , my parents bring him out for dinner.
I accompanied him to watch Thomas , Tom & Jerry and Barney.
He realli grown up le , even noe hw to comment on e video. LOL.
He was telling me , "Jie Jie , u see e cat use legs to drink milk" when he saw Tom using his leg to hold e milk bottle and drink.
Cant bear to see him off when it's time to say goodbye.
Ah Boy hugged me and kissed me goodbye.

Though i m tired , but e feeling is so great , thinking back of ytd i feel so sweet having him around for my weekends.

Took some pictures of him , shall update as well later on in a new post.

Australia's Trip

2009-10-20T02:16:00.003+08:00

My dar is away to Australia !!!

I will be on my own , alone till 12th Nov.
23days counting down.

More details to be updated tml F3
Tired after mapling , lots to update but no str8 to type =x

Night ! Dar.
Night everyone.

To Dar

2009-09-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

Happy 4 years 6 months Anniversary !

Phobia 2

2009-09-22T16:51:00.004+08:00

Sunday

Spendwhole afternoon at home.

Meet Dar in e night for dinner and movie.

Blood Ties

Phobia 2 !!!

Was a disappointment. 4bia was nicer compared to this. This time round only tio shocked but storyline was okie only and e last story was like funny? and i was blur wif e ending until Dar explained to me.

Bet alot of those who watched both 4bia and Phobia 2 find it a disappointment.

Recently watch de movies all are horror ones. Watch Blood Ties last week. It was voilent but touching storyline.

Dar and I were scared of e shocking scenes and i hold him tightly , pressed onto his hands when i tio shocked. Wondered if he finds it painful =x

After movie, walked wif Dar for a short distance b4 we managed to hire a cab. Send him home first cos he was nearer compared to my house from causeway point.

Mapling till morning 8am after reached home at 2am.

I want to sit at couple seats e next time i watch movie in cathay !!! Single seats are so cramp tt i cant cross my legs !!

Happy Birthday , Ah Ma !

2009-09-22T16:37:00.000+08:00

Saturday , i left Dar alone at hm playing maple and slping.

Cos.. It was my ah ma's chinese birthday =]

Went over to her place in e afternoon , of cos i bring along my lappy , played maple for awhile and we went out for dinner.

We , our whole family , wif my 2nd shu shu , youngest shu shu and my gugu , had our dinner at Gim Tim Restaurant at AMK.

It was an expensive dinner =x costs us abt $300 + over.

But it was worth it when we saw e smile on ah ma's face.

Bet she muz be happy tt i buy her a durian birthday cake.

This was e first time i ever buy her something on her birthday.

She had 2 pieces of cake =x can see durian is really her favourite.

Our late dinner has caused to eat faster den normally i do.

Due to e hunger, i finished everything so fast LOL.

Dad drives us back wif xiaoshu's car , while xiaoshu sits wif us at e back seat.

Rarely i see my dad willing to drive.

Back home after 15min ride, first thing i do when i reach home was ... on maplestorey.

No life?

But my Dar was inside <-- reason y i so gan chiong wanna to log in maple.

I hope ah ma really enjoys her 68th Birthday celebration.

2009-09-22T16:27:00.004+08:00

Pictures taken at the restaurant - Ah ma's birthday celebration.

Saw this durian shaped cake? It is a gift from me to ah ma, noe tt she likes durian so i bear wif e smell. But it realli...i cant take tt smell =x ps.

All of us , her grandchildren had a pic taken wif her. Look ! Hw happy she was , this is wat people call simple happiness. My ah ma so easily contented.

Taken this pic while we were waiting for e waitress to on e birthday song for us.

Singing birthday song for ah ma. Ah bi was clapping his hands while singing and his didi at e other side was looking and learning from him , so cute. =}

Ah ma cutting e cake =x

Look ! She is enjoying eating her favourite flavour cake.

Hahas =x Finally can get to take a pic of my sister. Took it secretly but she still managed to find out. She seriously look better wif this haircut.

Took another pic of her , asked her to pose for me and wat a miracle , she agreed , it is rare tt she will allow me to take a pic of her =x

This is zi sheng , my gugu's only son which is also e youngest. Hyper active kid. He was cute too, keep telling me jokes while we were waiting for our dinner to be served.

Too bored till even my didi asked my mei for PSP to play.

Shopping ~

2009-09-22T15:52:00.002+08:00

Again , i nv blog for sometime.

Busy wif e long weekend i had =x

Fri i was absent from work.
Went to Bugis's temple to pray.
Had our lunch near Sim Lim Square , Tomyam soup wif rice was wat i had while Dar had something like Chicken wif donno wat sauce de rice?

After tt , Dar and I went for a shopping spree.
Spend up to over hundreds at bugis street.
Saw Dar's sister working in one of e shops , selling slippers , shoes?
Hmm, and i buy a pair of slippers from her, thought tt could have her wif hitting e target but her target was far , $800 leh , hw to hit man !! End up , she giv me a discount =x shh.

Spend e whole day at Bugis till late 9pm
Reached 10pm + and only then i realised i forgotten abt my maple zakum !! =x

Had an early night tt day ~ shopping is tiring yet happy =]

Bad Dream.

2009-09-10T17:14:00.006+08:00

I had a bad dream e night before.

It was like so real , scared me off.

I couldnt rmb much after i woke up but i found myself waking up wif tears at e side of my eyes.

Dream was like.. I dreamt of my family living in my grandmum's previous hse.

My brother went out and for donno wat reason i don rmb , he dead.

And all i could rmb was e later part whereby i was at a funeral and i miss him so much till i cried badly.

A question i ask myself after i woke up , was .. where will we go to if we are dead?

Can we still stay in earth , or will we go to somewhere else like heaven?

All of a sudden , i feel like missing my brother so much.

Never ever did i have such feelings b4 this dream.

In e night when i reached hm at 7pm+

I saw my brother slping on bed.

Normally , if this happens i will @#!$@#% , but i didnt.

And i thought of e word "Cherish".

I didnt cherish my brother or my family sometimes i even take them for granted , but after tt dream i was realli afraid of losing anyone of them.

Until nw , i feel unease still.

Anyway , these few days i have been spending my time on work maple and of cos chatting wif Dar.

He didnt went for his camp activites so he was left in camp.

Shiok !

He get to watch tv , slp in air con and all !!!

Onli thing was , there is nth for him to eat , he has been eating instant noodles for past days.

And well ,

Right nw i'm...

BORED ! waiting for uncle to fetch me home from work again.

I HATE my office ! Mosquito bites all around my legs !

I pray for a new , cleaner office to work in. PLS.

Muacks.

2009-09-07T17:19:00.008+08:00

Weekends wif Dar was short.
Cos he has to book in on SAT !!!
Dar's leg hasnt recover =/ still limping.

Went for lan gaming on Sat afternoon.

Had lunch at VITTLES, restaurant next to Chambers.

Dar had Herb Spiced Chix while i had Mushroom Spaghetti.

The restaurant also provide free popcorn.I had 1 bowl myself while e other shared wif Dar.
Dar teased me after i finished e whole bowl of popcorn cos earlier on i told him i will only be eating those that i find it sweet, end up i finished e whole bowl and my reply to him was all are sweet ones therefore i finished all =x

This is my lunch , looks nt bad right? I finished e whole serving =x

Dar's Herb Spice Chix =]

Popcorn !!! It don realli look like it's veri sweet but when u taste it , it is realli sweet =)

I feel e sense of happiness nwadays whenever i m wif Dar.

Dar has nv failed to make me smile brightly even when i m disappointed.

Juz like in e night (sat) , I wanted to go somewhere badly but Dar refused to cos it will be veri rushing for him later on. I feel disappointed =[ realli , but in end i see e way Dar tries to cheer me up , i smiled and all e disappointment vanished.

Dar , i feel realli lucky to have u by my side still despite of all e rains and storms.

Way back home alone from Tampines was nt lonely at all , could feel Dar's love wif me =p

And Dar called me back when he finished his things.

Sunday , i had a day at home , slp till afternoon and went back to Tampines to exchange e bags i bought on Sat night.

2009-09-04T17:46:00.002+08:00

Friday <-- Best day of weekdays.

Dar and I had dinner together ytd night.
Yes , he booked out thur but has to book in on sat night by 10pm.

Went to 18Chefs to have our dinner.
2nd visit. I must say i don like e food there.
Don think i will go there again if i can choose.
Dar had Beef Pasta while i had Sausage Pasta =/
I regretted ordering e soup cos e soup of e day is broccoli.

After dinner , we went home.
Isnt it funny?
Just meet and have dinner LOL.
But of cos we had some time on e train and talked wif each other on our way home.
Back home , we take turns to spam ppl in maple.
For e sake of 60k A-Cash =x

Now, i m alone wif my boss in e office.
Nth to do , waiting to go home.

Everyone , enjoy this weekends bah = )

Dar , Happy 20th Birthday.

2009-08-31T02:27:00.002+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday , Dar Dar.

This year i didnt plan much for ur birthday.
Intend to juz spend e day wif u , doin watever u like.
Simple yet Happy Birthday celebration.

It has already past twelve , nearly going 2am.
Hope u like e surprise given to u juz nw.

Guess wat ? Guys.
I went dining wif Dar , Nel & his baby at Sun Plaza.
After tt , went to e arcade tt we hasnt visit for quite sometime.
Following tt , we headed to AMK for arcade again.
I thought i mistaken someone as Dar's cousin cos Dar didnt care abt e person when i pointed to him. End up , when e arcade was closed , Dar's cousin went up to us and then i realised i didnt mistaken =p

Took train back , i drop e idea of showing up at his place wif birthday cake cos it was already eleven plus , bet all cake shops are closed.
I came out of Yishun Mrt station's control panel , and surprisingly e cake shop wasnt close yet.
I bought a slice of cake and went to Causeway point interchange to look for Dar.
Luckily he hasnt board e bus yet. Heaven's on my side too.

We went to e open area below e mrt track?
Dar blowed off e candles after making a wish, and he finish e cake.
Went and patou after tt until 1am , we cabbed home.
And here i m right here , i reached home and cant wait to blog hee =x

Dar. I hope u enjoyed.

Dar's away on outfield camp

2009-08-26T17:27:00.005+08:00

Looking at e weather from my windows now, it is juz nice e best weather.

Looks like going to rain but it is not , super windy.

Lukily , this is hw e weather is for today.

Cos my Dar is out to field camps.

Will only be back tml evening.

I nagged at him about 7th month , go outfield muz be 101% careful, don talk rubbish and say sry when need to do business LOL.

However, i realised nowadays 7th month - ghost festival is nt as scary as before.

Perhaps due to those youngsters bah?

I could still see ppl walking on e streets even after 12am.

But still , i m abit afraid =x

Boring nw , in office waiting for my uncle to fetch me home from work.

But seemed like he is nowhere to be found lol.

Today on e bus 858 to work , i flashed back memories of Dar and me.

It has been hard for us to come so far.

But i realli cherish all e bits and pieces of memories tt we have been through.

Be it good or bad , rain or shine.

5more days to Dar's birthday, it will be e 5th birthday i m gonna celebrate for him.

I hope this will continues for the next 50years or even longer.

Suddenly , i feel so mushy lol.

But tt is realli hw i feel right nw.

Perhaps i didnt see him for nearly past 1week.

Starting to feel so lost without him , missing him too =x

Both of us has been counting down to Fri cos he will be booking out tt day.

I keep on comfort myself , today already wed , tml thur and finally fri will come.

Hahas, i realli hope so . tt fri can arrive asap.

Dar , i wait for u to be back tml evening. Jiayous for outfield =]

2009-08-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

Have lots to update but didnt have the time to.
Even pictures also i have not update yet =[

Dar's birthday is coming.
6 more days =]
But , i have yet buy him a present.
No idea wat to gift him le.

Hw fast time passed.
I have worked for abt 10month already.
Have no idea whether this is really e job i wan ?
I m like working everyday , trying to get days pass.
Recently , spent all my time on maple and tv shows.
Trained another new char in maple wif Dar.
In Maple , alot of ppl asking help from me , on this and there for them.
Not tt i don wan to help but helping them make me so mafan , moving character here and there.
Moreover , they are nt my close buddies.
How i can bring myself to reject him ? ARGHHH...

My dark rings getting from bad to worse.
Anyone can teach me hw to get rid of dark rings?

Sleepy =[

2009-08-19T16:58:00.003+08:00

Wed le !! Finally =]
2more days to weekends again.
But before tt , tml is my pay day , tt is e most important one.
Have a few bills need to pay and end of month is Dar's bday.
Cracked my brains to think of a way to celebrate his 20th bday but still , hasnt decide on an idea yet. For wat i noe , my Dar ar , abit fussy de , so i muz be cautious when comes to celebration.
Do i make him sound so bad ? =x

Hasnt been able to have a nice talk wif Dar for past 2days.
He was busy slping , oink oink =p like a pig, trying to make up e lack of slp for last week.
Too much overnight lan-gaming <--- was e cause of it.

Well , so bored , nth to do in office but boss was around.
Therefore , i cant maple !
Ever since e manager or watever his designation is , i have lose e freedom to play games.
Don wish to create trouble, scare he will say things infront of my boss.
So i came here instead , cos.. to me , blogging is still acceptable in office.

Bored !! Bored!!

Boring Weekends For Us.

2009-08-18T16:45:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. Again.. Back to working days !

Wondered y is there only 2weekends and 5 weekdays ?
Should make it abit fairer , 3weekends and 4weekdays.
If realli tt way , hw great would it be !!!
Back to work , physco myself to go work cos i was feeling rather sian.

Had Mahjong yesterday.
Dar didnt get to play mahjong even after he waited 5hrs for it.
Haiis , forget it don continue le.
But he wasnt angry or wat.
Tt is him , my Dar.
Sweetest of all !

Meet Dar on friday , he took a cab , wanted to fetch me at SGH.
End up due to some reasons , he drop down e cab.
Wondered wat reason?
Damn pissed off.
He drop off from e cab cos e taxi driver doesnt noe where he wanted to go.
And tt is so lame cos i already tell Dar to fetch me opposite Singapore General Hopsital de bus stop and tt i will be at under e bridge waiting for him.
Then , e stupid and fucking taxi driver asked him where he wan to go AGAIN only after he passed by SGH ! WTH right?
I was on e phone wif Dar when he tell e taxi driver and we repeated several times indicating tt i m at opposite of SGH !
Cos of his stupidity or he did it on purpose , Dar wasted $7 on cab fee juz to reach SGH carpark.
Taxi driver drives him to e main gate of SGH , stupid , isnt it ?
Already mention over n over again opposite SGH de bus stop !!!!

Recently , we met a few taxi drivers like tt.
Another time was weeks ago , Dar wanted to fetch me at my hse from his place, e taxi driver tell Dar he donno hw to go only after he drive Dar to Woodlands Central there. Wat i was saying is like they should have already tell us at e veri start tt they donno hw to go when we tell them e destination !!!

ARGH ! Enough of all these !
I m going to lodge a complaint !!!
Luckily , Dar got take down his plate no. F3.

After reached Dar's place , Dar went up and changed. He is going out wif his frens , leaving me alone but is ok , he should have his own private time also hee ! For me , i went home for tv shows.
Mel , Dar and me , we met up at late 11pm to have supper and went for lan -gaming. They both took package from 12am - 8am while i don wan to. Don think i can tahan till 8am. End up i went home at 3am plus.
Dar and Mel went back e next day 2pm (Sat) and on sat night , Dar was asked by camp to go somewhere for an event.

Short weekend , this week !
Didnt get to spend time alone wif Dar.
Saddest thing was , next weeekend Dar cannot book out.
Hopefully we will get to spend more time on following weekends =]

Beautiful Weekends.

2009-08-12T15:00:00.007+08:00

Sat , i was at home for e whole day other than going to Chambers for HT.
Dar was on duty !!!

Sun, Dar is out from camp =]
Meet Dar to go town tgt for our happy hours.
We went to somewhere which i enjoyed alot.
After tt , we went for midnight movie at Plaza Sing.

Hmm.. i must say it is a show tt managed to make me laugh all e way but e storyline wasnt tt great. I watched the 1:00am time slot , and to my surprise , e threatre was packed wif ppl. Even e veri first row also was filled up. Looks like singaporeans realli support Jack's Neo Movies. Guess ppl watch his movies cos it reflects abt singapore and wat singaporean are like?

Went back home only at e next morning (monday).
Ytd realli had a sweet time but tiring too =x
Didnt get to slp.
Reached home , on maple afk and str8 went to bed.
Sleep Sleep Sleep LOL.

Dar , thanks for being so "pei he" despite e fact tt u r so tired after ur duty.
I realli enjoyed myself on sunday.
I realised e meaning of wat u said to me e other day.
Think next time i will think carefully b4 i decide where i wan u to go wif me.

Happy 44th Birthday , Singapore !

Recovered !

2009-08-12T14:37:00.002+08:00

My blog muz be back to life !!!

Had nt been updating any post for e past weeks.
Simply due to sickness.
I was down wif fever, flu, cough, sore throat and backache.
Serious hor ?

Fall sick on e day i accompanied mum to TTS.
I went despite e fact tt i was nt well.
Waited for mum for 2hr 30min.
Mei and I went to bugis.
Dragged her to bugis , nt to shop but to pray. I prayed to god, hoping everything will be fine for my mum. I went and "Qiu Qian" too. Asked for a divine lot tt will tell me e future or current status of my mum's health.
Feeling so worried as i was praying , afraid tt e ans i wan might nt be there.
Luckily , it turns out to be a middle lot.

Well.. Everything went smoothly.
Results shown nth was wrong wif her "chang" or "wei".
Tt weekend (1st and 2nd Aug) i stayed at home cos of sickness.
Went to e doc on sat , costed me $68.10, damn exp !!

Mon 3rd Aug, of cos i went back to work.
Prepared payslip and all.
Tue went to doctor again, MC for 3days.
Yet , wed i still went to aunt hse, despite e fact tt my cousin was down wif h1n1 and e fact tt i was sick.

Fri went back to work , nth much to do.
Long weekends to rest cos mon is PH.

Anyway, feel so tired and so much to say.
Look out for my next post on hw i spent my weekends !! =]

Happy =] sad =[ Tired =x

2009-07-27T14:44:00.008+08:00

Friday 24/7/09

Knocked off from work at 6pm.

Dar was already waiting for me at Tampines KFC lol.

He didnt look unhappy when i reached despite e fact that i m late nearly half an hour due to e road incident near my workplace.

Dar , u are juz so sweet =]

Dar had already finished his meal when i reached. So i had dinner by myself wif him sitting beside playing his PSP ! He was playing basketball game LOL. I feed him some fries as i m eating my meal.

Headed elsewhere after dinner. I dragged him there and he followed me.
Muacks ! u r e best.

Both of us reached home late at 11pm.1st thing i do was.. take a look at my wu gui (s).Talked to them , saw one of them look like dying or already died?

Took a closer look , it juz couldnt move at all but wif its eyes opened, possible tt he is already mati?

Feel so worried , but it realli don move at all and it stinks !

I took a pic of it and i decided nt to do anything for e moment, juz leave it like this to observe.

By tml if it still doesnt move at all, keeping still at e same spot , den i will confirm it's dead !

Went into my room but i didnt slp. I went to formu abt wu gui and read alot of post.Shocking news was , i read a post abt one of e owner's wu gui death. He typed out describing hw e wu gui looks like when it is dead. As i read , i m almost confirmed tt my wu gui is already mati.
Sad to say tt but i still follow my decision to leave everything till tml.

Had papu wif Dar juz nw , i died twice due to lagness. ARGH !

Dar , I had a great time juz nw =]
I m sure u had a great time too , despite e fact tt u r tired after a long day.

Sat 25/7/09

Woke up at 12pm, still feeling slpy , i sleep at 4am last night.
1st thing i do again , was to go and see my wugui.
But i feel so afraid to go out of my room , afraid to face e reality of it's death.

End up , i confirmed it's death at 1pm !
Sad, only a few days nia den die le , left wif 1 wugui nw so lonely.But this made me decided to spend more time and effort on this 1 and onky wu gui left behind !
Changed e tank's water and start to mapling till 5pm.

Went and bath , waiting for Dar to meet me.
I bet he was slping and i was bingo !! LOL
Met up late in e night at 8pm , went to Chambers.
Had korean cup noodles for my dinner =[
I finished gaming at 3am cos i was feeling unwell. But i didnt make noise , sitting quietly beside Dar.

Had some sleep , wake up watching him dota-ing , talking to him while he is playing.
Dar finishes his dota at 5am +.
We walked to Chong Pang for breakfast , he had Nasi Lemak while i had Wanton Mee.
Dar send me home by cab and then headed back to his hse.
I didnt call him cos his phone was OFF ! No Batt zz

Didnt get to slp after tt , Bubu called me and i only managed to slp at 8am.

Sun 26/7/09

Woke up at 11am + , Dar was e one who phoned me up for ... PAPU !!
Didnt get to papu cos i throw e quest item out ! anyway i hope it wont cause Dar unable to papu AGAIN.
Went scrolling instead and boomed , gained nth =x
After maple , Dar headed to Dota and i went out to Yu Xuan's birthday.
Buy him a present at Mini Toons , a bottle wif sweets filled in,

Reached his hse at 2pm , had buffet and headed to Chambers again LOL.
Had been going to Chanbers frequently recently.
Meet Dar at Chambers , reached at around 5pm , gaming till 7:30pm. Headed to Chong Pang for dinner , Dar had Roast Meat Rice while i had Ipoh HorFun. =]
Took 969 wif Dar to Tampines, we were both slpy lol took a nap in e bus.
Went to Cold Storage at Tampines cos there is still some time for Dar to get some food into camp.
Dar bought Peach Tea , Tibits and Conflakes into camp =)
Wait for bus at interchange , my bus happened to reach first while Dar's bus is following behind. Dar insisted tt i muz board e bus , i did his bidding , kissed him goodbye and board e bus.
This time round , we couldnt meet until National Day.
He is being confined again for coming weekend !!

I m going to stay at home rot for this weekend !!
OR
Maybe i should start my slimming programme again ! Swimming on weekends =x

Anyway , Happy 14th Birthday Yuxuan =)

2009-07-23T14:33:00.001+08:00

Yesterday , Stayed at home e whole day.
Dar went out wif my di to Chambers.
Spend my day on mapling and watching tv.
Nothing much to do , still feeling e ache on my back.

Today, i m back to work after my 2days MC.
Feeling so sleepy =[
After work , i meet up wif Dar at Tampines.
He is booking in today after his 1week MC.
Had dinner at kopitiam , $10 for a meal for 2.
He had chicken cutlet while i had spaghetti, a bowl of soup wif a slice of bread for each of us too.
E bread !! Simply sucks.
E soup was like okok lor.
Afterall $10 meal , expect hw gd?
E spaghetti was nice while chicken cutlet is average only.
Exchanged wif Dar for his chicken cutlet 3/4 through e meal lol.

After dinner , time to book in.
Waited bus wif Dar at e bus stand.
Not feeling sian or wat , cos he will be out tml =]

Anyway , not forgetting today is my didi's bday.

Happy 18th Birthday , Xingjie !

4 Years 4 Months =)

2009-07-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

Happy 52th Monthsary , Dar.

Thought we couldnt even have dinner today on this special day.
Surprisely, due to Dar's fever , he is on leave till thursday.

Met Dar early morning 8am for lan gaming.
I didnt go to work after our lan gaming as i was having mense cramps and sever backache.
Decided to visit e doctor =[

Had our lunch at 925 Yishun , chicken rice !!!
Dar seemed to be better , at least he start to eat as much as he used to.
Dar was dragged by me to go bank to change his broken atm card and following tt he accompanied me to UOB. Wanted to go see doctor but Dar was feeling tired , same for me too =x
We took cab home , Dar send me home b4 going home.

Back home , we both took a nap.
I wake up at 8pm and realised i havent go to e doctor..!!
Called Dar when i was on my way out, told him don have to meet for dinner le , knowing tt he is tired, instead i asked him to talk wif me on e phone. And tt is enough.
We talked half way and he hanged up , promising to call me back awhile later.
Somehow i feel weird, but i didnt say anything.

Was alone waiting in e clinic, Dar called me back and asked wat i m doin.
And all of a sudden , Dar appeared infront of me =]
So surprising !
So sweet of him to come over from Woodlands to keep me company.
That moment was so precious.
Perhaps to some of e gals out there , they might feel it is nth to be happy abt upon seeing bf coming to find them secretly. But to me , i feel it is so sweet and touching.
Cos he seldom do tt , therefore i feel e extra happiness in it when it happened.

Dar , Thanks for e surprise !
I feel so sweet and doted by u when i saw u walking into e clinic wif ur hp talking to me.
I wish we will be like this forever , happily tgt.

And of cos , i managed to get 2days MC =]
We headed to my hse after doctor.

Shocked...

2009-07-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

Just finished blogging but i came back for another post.

Wanted to post this down.

I just had a shock.

Almost scared me to death =z

Just nw i looked at both my darlings (turtles)

Saw one of them look like sick.

Stick out its head but i didnt saw it open its eyes, i thought it is blind =s

Luckily, 5min ago it finally move and even climb onto e other de body.

These two ar..

One of them veri active , like to look here and there, even stared at me. While e other is veri lazy, don like to move , always feign death !!

So cute of them, wif different characteristic. =]

Dar
Did i scare u when i told u tt one of them seemed to be blind =x
I m sry lol.
I juz confirm both are able to see cos i saw their eyes open wide wide de.
Watching chn U nw right?
Don forget i m waiting for ur call =s
U noe mah ?
I realli love them so much.
Thanks Dar.

Going to bed soon.

Meeting Dar tml for lan-gaming in e morning =]

Thx, Dar :)

2009-07-20T23:54:00.003+08:00

Sat i stayed at home for e whole day.
On 2x in maple , spamming =[
Dar was still unwell so we didnt meet out for any event.

Sunday , Went to Chambers in e morning.
Trained maple while Dar play his dota game =s
After gaming , we decided to go Chong Pang for lunch.
I walked past selling turtle de shop , i suddenly gt e urge to wanting to buy =p
I then "sa jiao" to Dar , asking him to buy them for me, used our coming 4yr 4months monthsary as an excuse too.
Dar of cos , noe i m trying to get him buy them for me.
After lunch , we went to buy them.
At e first look , i chosen below these two.

They were both so close when i saw them at first sight. Took only two pics cos i haven place them into small tank yet. =x

Went to aunt hse wif yongkang at around 5pm to repair my uncle's com. I only managed to reach home at 8pm. Back to maple training , 2x ended at 8:45pm and Bishop is nw lvl 169 while Nightlord is nw lvl 135.

Back to working days, today is pay day. 20th July 09
Woke up wif my right eye swollen =s
Guess is e eye lighting lotion caused it. Yet i still go over my aunt hse to do salary thing. Gotten my pay but cant get to spend, had to save for future. Dar and I had started to save bit by bit for our future.

Dar finally recovered from fever =]

My Dar Is Sick =[

2009-07-17T15:55:00.003+08:00

Finished my work on counting pay but there are still alot more to do.

Both GST & Non GST companies's Statement of Accounts !!

Ytd night, Dar phoned me.

Dar told me tt he was running a fever.

38.6 Degrees !

And well, they don allow him to go home, nv bring him to clinic or hospital.

No medical help too.

Medic was all back home at evening.

And ,my Dar was left alone in e sickbay , fed wif some medicine, tt's all.

This is wat i hated abt NS !

Nv care abt sickness or watever, everything go by rules.

Have to wait till today morning den can go to e medicial centre.

WTH , wat is this , man !

I feel so heartache when i heard Dar's weak voice over e phone.

He sound so tired and sick.

Unable to chat long too.

How heart-breaking it is , u noe?

I didnt talk long wif him , urge him to go bed asap.

Left him a sms b4 i go to bed.

Luckily, he woke up b4 i fall asleep. =]

Dar told me he was feeling better despite fever was still there.

But sad to say, Dar couldnt book out today, confinment !!

Acutally few days ago, Dar had sore throat.

I was already worried abt him.

He seldom fall sick but if he is sick, it will be a serious & long one.

I was even telling him e other day , tues i think.. tt i will get him a bottle of herbal tea for him to drink , i could feel tt his body was abit heaty le =[

Dar.

I m feeling bored right now.

Y didnt u call me back yet?

No news from u since morning.

Abit worried =s

I still want u to pei me to xl's hse to get my stuffs.

How i wish u could get e 1week MC which u mentioned to me ytd !!

*Praying Hard !

My Sweetest Boy Ever.

2009-07-16T15:38:00.000+08:00

My post for sunday.. Was all abt Dar.
About my quarrel wif Dar.
I forgetten clearly abt my sweetest boy !

Ah Boy and Parents came to my hse on sunday afternoon.
Ah boy was so cute when he called me "JieJie".
I gave him e colour pencils and e watch.
E watch we buy at white sand was a toy car watch.
Too bad tt day he was in a hurry to go for his lunch, so i couldnt take any pics =[
Boy was keep saying Thomas Thomas when he received e gift.
He didnt stay long, but he kissed us b4 he went off.
Boy , u brighten up my mood for e day despite i had quarrelled wif Dar.

These few days had been doin nth much.
Dar was in camp ! and..
I heard tt he will be confine this weekends =s Hate Guards !

2009-07-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

Dar has to book in by 9pm on mon night.

We met up at Yishun Northpoint for dinner =]
Heng ! I was not late. lols.
Dar asked me where i wan to have dinner at b4 we meet out.
I told him i wanted to eat 18Chefs :)
Cos mei told me tt e food there nt bad wor.

Dar really brought me to 18Chefs for dinner.
We each chosen our own pasta & flavourings.
Dar was fooling around wif me, purposely nt wanting to choose e same as me =p
And when i say drinks.. he said he wanted ILT (Ice Lemon Tea).
I then hurried said i wanted ILT too =[
Then.. He called me "copycat , no creativity" .
ROAR !
Well, Dar had chicken meat pasta and i had sausage pasta.
It is.. Average ?
Dar says tt nth is nice except e ILT lols.
He drink a big gulp and he swap his cup wif mine.
So childish hahas , i laughed at him.

Took some pics but unable to publish them nw.
Cos all are in Dar's hp except 1 in my phone.
Shall edit and placed them in when i get them from Dar.

After dinner, i dragged Dar to Cold Storage.
Made him push e trolley around wif me, while i see and look around wat to buy.
Get myself tofu and mushroom for simple lunch tml, gotten some cup noodles for Dar and lastly Dar get me lotion cream cos i asked him for it =x
In return, i get Dar a facial wash , his one in camp was e scurb nt suitable for daily use =[
Had a sweet shopping in Cold Storage.
Somehw , i feel we are like married couple buying daily use stuffs =x
(Paiseh , sound abit too "bu yao lian" ! )

I feel so blissed to have him wif me all these years.
And i want him to have him wif me for e whole of my life !
Without u , hw could i live on ?

Sunshine After Rain =]

2009-07-13T15:31:00.005+08:00

Sat night , Dar was still in camp.

Couldnt book out donno due to watever reason?
I was on e phone wif Dar while playing maple.
Trained KOC cos it could help booast e magic attack of my Bishop.
However, I tio ksed , wth.

This then caused a quarrel or rather should say caused Dar to get angry wif me.

It happened like this , Dar asked me to bring my main down to ks back lo and ya i was trying to, my sister was talking to me while Dar is talking to me too. I feel so fed up and shouted at my sister asking her to shhhh ! While i m back to talking to Dar, Dar talking to me alot abt ksing and wat to do and was asking me some Qs too. Due to "pi qi bao zhao" , i replied in a tone tt shows bad attiude.

And Dar lectured me , saying "Wa , attitude". Yet i talked back saying tt cos he asking alot Qs and both him and my sister were talking to me , i felt fed up all of a sudden.
But sadly, cos of my attitude , Dar was unhappy wif me.
Talked awhile more and he hanged up e phone.
It has been so long we nv quarrel or have any misunderstanding or "mo cha".
I regretted !! Y i show ATTITUDE !!
Decided to let him cool down , so we both headed to bed early.

Ytd morning , I met up wif Dar to pass laptop to him.
I believed he had already cooled down but..
Cos i m LATE, he was like abit unhaappy again.
He phoned me when he booked out but i took so long to reach Northpoint.
He travelled from Tampines was even faster den me , tt was y he get angry.
After passing him e laptop , we both went back home.
Haiis i messed up things again =[

In e night , Dar accompanied Nel to his cousin hse.
I was abit unhappy , cos he nv pei me at all !!!
But thinking back , i was at fault so i shh.
We as in Me , Dar , Nelson and Dingjie decided to catch a movie at Yishun GV.
End up all reached before i reach , OMG !
Dar's face was even blacker den in e morning , i noe he veri fed up abt my late coming !

In e threatre, he giv me a cold shoulder , but i still keep showing him care =]
Need to find ways to break e cold war.
And well , i was so happy ! =]
Cos after e show , Me and Dar back to normal le wahaha.
Thanks Dar , Sorry for being attitude on sat night and of cos sry for my late coming always =x
I promised i will show u improvement :)
Btw , ya.. e movie we watch was "Transformer".
Didnt drag Chaigek along cos she ever mention she not interested =x hahas

Anyway , Transformer is nice !! Interesting , if u haven watch , muz go catch it =]

Happy Birthday , Dear Nelson =]

2009-07-09T15:57:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Nelson !=p

This post is specially for u hor !

I hope tt u can find ur Miss. Right ASAP !

Miss Right of Nelson's , pls appear LOL.

I hope next yr ur bday , can celebrate wif ur loved one , ur e other partner.

If u wan us (friends) to join , we don mind too =x

Sorry tat i cant take off today to go out wif u , pei u.

Anyway , 20 yr old le , 1 yr more , we will gain FREEDOM ! =]

Noe y e words are all in green? Ans : Cos u like Lime Green F3.

Nth To Do =p

2009-07-07T15:12:00.004+08:00

Accompanied Dar to Tampines on Sunday.
Dar asked me :"Don u feel bored accompanying me to Tampines and then going back home myself? "
I replied him : " Nope, i can listen to songs or play games on my journey back, continued saying.. But if i let u go back camp alone, u will feel more bored. If i can, i will go back wif u everytime. It allows us to have more time being tgt."
Dar then smiled to me :)

It is true.
To every gal out there whose bf is in camp, u should accompany ur bf back to camp if u r free to.
Don make it a habit that onli ur bf have to send u home :)
I always feel if sometimes u do something different , change abit of ur lifestyle, u will end up feeling different and ur boy will feel doted by u too =]

Feel so bored in office =x
Nothing to do at all.
I m trying to get everyone out tml's night for steamboat or juz a simple dinner at anywhere.
It has been so long i didnt get to meet up wif frens like Chai gek , Kokwei, William and more..
But seemed like organising an outing is not an easy job.
Need to start learning from here LOL.

I bought a shirt ytd night at Northpoint.
Requested Uncle to drop me off at Mrt Station, wanting to get myself something, check for rebonding prices and of cos to bank in my $ for savings !!!
But hor, all machines i could find were nt in service , wat a bad luck day :(
End up i buy e shirt and went home for dinner infront of e TV =}

Oh ya , Dar will be getting leave on wed for Nelson's bday celebration :) Hooray !!

2009-07-05T16:14:00.000+08:00

Just managed to take 3 pictures of Dar eating KFC and at e same time watching TV show too.
I had a hard time trying to snap pics of him , cos he don like it =p but i insisted.

Above picture was taken when Dar was focusing on his tv show =]
Left wif only some food , cos he played too much dota and all e food went into my stomach , eating ono-stop while watching tv =p but of cos i do feed Dar too wif cheese fries .. drinks and i also do keep some food for him. =]

Dar , finally bear to put aside his dota games and eat his lunch , guess is like dinner le cos abt 5pm + . Dar was eating whipped potato while watching wu zhong xian's show. If i m not wrong i think e show name is " Qi Tian Da Sheng" or "Zhong Yi Zui Ai Xian" !! Laughing while eating LOL.

Blur Blur de =x nt well taken.

Dar.. I love it whenever i m wif u. Enjoying every moments wif u around , Muacks.

Happy Day AGAIN.

2009-07-05T02:15:00.004+08:00

HAHA :)
So happy today , super happy.
Had a great day outside wif Dar muacks..

Dar booked out today at 9am, I guess?
Didnt call me cos he don wan to wake me up :)
But actually , i woke up b4 9am LOL
Dar rushed out to meet me str8 after reaching home and had a bath.
I was late again =x
i m sorry , Dar.

Went to town, shopping at Plaza Sing.
Never fail to buy things :P
But didnt realli spend much.
Had KFC wif Dar, Buddy Meal !!!
Y named Buddy Meal , should be Couple Meal ?
I want it named as Couple Meal =p
Took some pictures of Dar too Wahaha.
But cant upload nw cos he is beside me he will gua gua jiao ^$£%"^^%£ .

Dar had been playing dota since donno wat time zzz.
But i nv complained at all.
Cos i noe tt is his favourite past time.
At least he is beside me when he play & allows me to random hero for him :]
Though my hand is nt tt lucky =p

Simple but pleasant and quiet day we had.
Dar , thanks. I loved it when u dote me, let me have my ways :]
U r best !!

Stressful Week

2009-07-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

This has been a stressful week for me.
Alot of matters to think of and decisions waiting for me to make.
Stress level - High.
Be it mum's case, work, studies or wisdom, all of these are matters tt i have to think or even make decision on.
Even if i choose wat path to go, there are always objections. :( tired.

Mum, I Need You.
1st July 09
Mum went to TTS for her test.
I feel so helpless and worrying for her when i m in office.
Readers muz be wondering y didnt i took off to go wif her?
Answer : Cos she don allows me to take off.
Result of e test was , everything's fine.
It should be a piece of gd news , but it's not.
Doctor said to both my mum & sis tat normally if everything is fine , means nth goes wrong.
However , in my mum's case , nt other she goes in and out of e toilet a few times a day but also, she feel pain in her tummy or "wei"?
She will be going back to TTS on 31st July for another 2 test.
2hrs duration for each operation , wif e risk of tearing up her intestine.
Mum also need someone to fetch her after it cos she might be abit blur or sickly after e whole test.
I offer to go , despite e fact tt my mum don like me to take off.
And surprisingly, she nodded :)
After ytd , i guess we were all aware tat it's her intestine or gastric tat is having problems.
Of cos, e % of her getting cancer increases rapidly too?
I pray it's not.

Work
I had been struggling for a period of time.
Should have already quitted this job at end may cos of health problems.
Should i say it is my health problem or is e environment tat is affecting my health ?
Watever it is, i had been taking MC ever since started working.
A month ago, i was even having skin allergy problems. :(
Mum asked me to quit, but i didnt.
Now, i m better but these few days i had been getting mosquito bites all around my body.
E bites are all big and swollen.
Now tat i m thinking of... should i quit?
Honestly speaking, i don realli like this job tt i m working right now despite tt e working hours are shorter and wif slightly high salary.
It is all abt $ issue.
E job i liked wont be paying me so high pay , up to $1.5k but this job offers me this salary.
Asked Dar abt this, his ans to me was up to u, u decide it for urself :)
Haiss.. anyone have any idea wat should i do abt it?

Wisdom Tooth
Decision over removal of Wisdom Tooth was using CPF to pay for e surgery.
I spent days considering b4 coming out wif this decision.
But y, y do some of my relatives objects ?
Insists tt i muz go to e professor for e operation despite having to pay by cash.
Y don they respect my decision ?
I have my own thinkings and reason for doin this ar.
Ur wan me to understnad e fact tt ur are concern of me,
Ya i m awared ,but i don think there will be any problems.
Anyway ,guess this cant be solve asap?
I will have to wait for months ?
Unless i agreed to all of ur.

Early Childhood Course
Was e course i have been wanting to take.
It is also my dream job of being a childcare teacher.
Now, i m given e chance to study wif having to pay juz veri small amount of fee :)
But stucked , i donno if i should study it?
I will have to quit my current job if i were to go for e course, cos i m sure i need to go childcare centre and learn hw to take care of e kids.
It is more abt experiences and...nt abt theory.
However, given my situtation nw , hw to choose?
Giving up this job will caused me problems.
I need this income for my own allowance and to giv my mum some allowance for e household too.
And.. Wat if my mum realli ill? i cant afford to lose this job by then.
Yet i cant wait any longer for e results to be out..or my decision to be made.
Cos..

Opportunities don wait for u.

Gtg.. Yet finish my work for e day :(

2009-07-03T11:02:00.004+08:00

I juz woke up :)
Today is e earliest time i climb out of bed.
Had been slping late and waking up late :(

Finally is Friday again :)
Weekends tml !!!
Time seemed to pass so fast.
Planned alot of events wif Dar for this weekend.
Will be going to town , hooray :]
Lots to update abt this week but yet don have e time to.
Anyway , gtg work :(

To be continued...

Shi Shang Zhi You MaMa Hao.

2009-06-30T16:20:00.004+08:00

Woooo..

Finally i get to go home early ytd !!
But , cos mum didnt cook , i went to market to dapao food home.
Didnt log in maple or msn until 10pm cos mum was using and also e fact tt i m lazy.
Spend all my time infront of e TV.
Watched shows continously from 7pm-11pm.

10pm-11pm
I watched a show at OKTO channel ?
Show name was "Danger In The Womb"
It was abt two cases of pregnant woman who faced pregnancy prob.
Both of them had twins , idenitical ones.
But i guess cos there were both together , resulted one steals e nutrients of e other ?
End up both babies , one big and one small.
Had no choice but to go for a laser operation to separate e two of them.
E operation was a scary and painful one, as can see from it.
The doctor den inject on e mother's tummy and inserted the tube in.
Used laser to separate them.

Anyway , case 1 both babies were born and managed to survive.
E (used to be) smaller one , turns out weighing heaiver den e bigger one.
However , for case 2 , didnt turn out well.
Both were delivered out however sadly , 1 passed away on e following day. It was e bigger baby that passed away. E smaller one , survived through.
E mum was interviewed and mentions a veri gd point.
She said she felt sad but happy also , mixture of feelings.
Sad cos her another son passed away :(
Happy in e way tt at least 1 of them survived through and as e other grows , she can also get to see hw her passed away de son will look like when at this age cos both are identical twins, look alike :)

Realised giving birth is realli hard, so all of ur who read this , do cherish ur mum.
I muz say a mother , from e day when they noe they were pregnant , they starts to worry till e day u were born and even till e day u married and have ur own childrens.
They will always worried abt u till e day they passed away or u pass away (touchwood*)

Mum are so noble :) Expections to those who abort their health child. If unhealthy den is different case.

Mature Love.

2009-06-29T02:52:00.004+08:00

Sat.. As promised each other , Dar & me didnt meet up for e day.
I want him to stay at hm and do his own things , play his dota and have his own space =p
Talked on e phone wif Dar , over maple & things.
Our most common topic are Maple ,H1N1 and of cos my work.
Dar headed to bed at 2am plus 3am.
But i was still awake, until 4:30 when Dar called me.
Didnt slp cos afraid i might overslept.

Went out of house at 4:50am.
So early went out cos there wasnt any bus until 5:50am.
Dar asked me to take cab to interchange but i refused.
Feel tt walking to interchange is a form of exercise too.
Walked till community centre de diesel station den realised is still far too early.
Buy breakfast for Dar :) sweet bah , wat a gd gf i m hor?
Buy him Delifrance breakfast.
Walked to Northpoint ,reached but he juz reached Woodlands Bus Interchange !!
Went to Mac , decided to buy another set of breakfast for him to choose between.
Bought him Sausage McMuffin wif Egg + Ice Milo.
Board e bus he was in after waited for so longgggg..
He only take harshbrown and took a nap after tt.
Watching him covered by my jacket, slping soundly, realli makes me love him so much.
Cant stop loving him.

Reached Tampines, asked him which one he wants, he wants both :)
He took them back to camp and had it.
I took e bus back to Yishun, reached home at 8 but slp only at 10am.
10am all e way to 6pm+.
Spend e rest of e day infront of com and watching tv.
As for y Dar booked in on sunday morning, was all cos he need to revise for an incoming exam !!
NS also gt exam zzz.

Dar went to bed early at 11pm after spending so time wif me on e phone.
As for me , i watched a lame show until 1am + and onli go to bed at 3am.
Was fooling around wif my mei for tt 1hr plus :)
Mei, don worry :) i wont leak out ur secret , or rather our secret =x

SURPRISE =x

2009-06-29T02:12:00.005+08:00

Had nt blog for a week le :(
Had been busy lately.

Hmm weekends spent wif Dar and on sleeping.
Dar was booked out on Fri night.
Didnt meet up for dinner cos he had it wif his friends.
I went Northpoint after work at near 8pm.
Went & get my phone W508 which costs me only $48.
Not bad looking , white colored , walkman phone.
Now seemed like i m using 3 phones , my old one , Dar's C905 and this walkman phone.
All are sony ericsson.
I used to detest this brand but nw super supporting it cos nokia's phone are so ugly :(

Fri night , meet up wif Dar till midnight.
Had roti prata wif him at Kovan.
Dar looked so tired , cos he had been lacking of slp.
Took cab home , Dar was slping all e way LOL.
Dar , do u like wat i have done for u?
I simply enjoyed surprising u every now and then.
It spiced up our life & our relationship.
Back home , i slp at around 4am.
Don have idea wat time Dar went to bed.

A simple but happy life is wat we leading now :)

Pictures, Only 3 !

2009-06-28T02:43:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken in chalet. Only 3 pics cos my hp memory don hav enough space ps =x will take more in future , if nt my blog look so dead wif only WORDS !! F3
Both of them are my cousins. The one without clothes on was my 5th aunt de son "Ah wei".
Can say he is one who like to play a fool around and nv failed to make us laugh. He is playful but cute at times while e other wif yellow shirt is my xiao jiu's son. He is mixed blood de , therefore his eyes is soooo beautiful. hahas. He is more quiet type, cry easily? :) Both of them are on gd terms ,one play while e other watch , taken in living rm of e chalet. The sofa looked so cosy and comfortable isnt it ? =p

This was taken on e last day of Chalet in e arcade. She is my 2nd cousin de daughter :) Her english was superb, e way she talk , e vocabulary she used was realli so chim !!! Below's pic is also my 2nd cousin de daughter , her 2nd daughter. She is abt 3yr old. Whenever i look at her , i will think of someone, 1 who is so dearly to me :( Anyway she looked so cute.

Chalet !! I loved it.

2009-06-28T02:27:00.000+08:00

Tue 23rd June 09

Had a day off cos it was e opening ceremony of Changi New Water Reclamation Plant.
Lee Xian Long will be there for e opening ceremony.
Therefore , all of us were given a day off :)
Super SHIOK !!

But i didnt spend e day at home.
Woke up damn late at 12pm +
Went to Northpoint to buy KFC meal for mum.
I realised i m getting more n more "siao shun" nowadays.
After lunch , mum, mei & i played games.
One person entitled to 1 laptop.
GOOD LIFE !! :)

Sit 3rd Aunt's car over to Chalet at late afternoon.
Mei & I drop off at White Sand Shopping Mall for some shopping.
Intend to take my hp but end up didnt get it.
Walked around, pay internet bills , buy lotions for face n eyes, buy a watch wif car design for boi , screen protector for Dar's hp.
Spend alot within a few hours :(

Walked over to Chalet as it was near.
Upon reaching , i start to grab some food =p
Too hungry le after all e shopping hahas.
On my laptop to play cos nth to do.
Played till 10+pm , Dar called me.
I took cab to his camp & back to my hse.
Went to my house there de coffee shop for supper =p
I had Cheese fries while Dar had Fried chicken set.
After dinner , Dar took cab home while i insist to walk home :P
Don wan a ride from him , too full , muz walk !!
Back home, we played maple tgt for awhile :)

Wed 24/6/09

Took off for e day cos of face allery T_T
I cant use GARNIER de UV protection loiton !!
Stayed at home e whole day , took pill and had a slp.
Sleep from 3pm to 7pm nearly 8.
Dar was at home too, whole day dota-ing lol.
But in e night, Dar met up wif me at my hse there.
Accompany me for sometime and took cab home again =x
Worth it anyway , cos he need to take bus , mrt and bus again b4 able to reach home.

Thur 25/5/09

After work , headed to White Sand shopping mall & followed by Chalet.
Went to shopping mall juz to get e shoes i want =p
Upon reaching chalet , all was abt to set off for dinner zzz.
And i juz put down my things and went wif them.
We went to HongKong Streets to have our dinner , while some of them went for Japanese meals.
I didnt follow , cos i don realli like !!
I had Sweet & Sour Rice , Didi had Beef spaghetti and Mei had korean donno wat mee.
Pity , forget to take pics of e food. Di's one looked so yummy !!
Went back home after dinner , gotten a free ride from 5th uncle's wife.
Had a bath after reached home and played maple till midnight 2am before going to bed :)

Will be uploading some pics in a new post :)

Pictures ~ !

2009-06-22T11:33:00.008+08:00

My Mei , wif her presents ~! Look hw happy she is ?

Picture taken in portrait view. Wow.. Quite alot of presents hor?

Landscape view. Come , i intro to ur which is from who.

E Bag at e veri top left is from Body Shop ,a gift from one of mei's frens's sister.

Below of tat , e big brown box is a gift from 2 males frens of mei , inside is a tigger which body figure looks like a stingray :P and also a bottle of wishes.

Infront of it , e blue color present was from her cousins , Lisa , Yilin and Zhi Sheng. Inside is a CD holder printed wif Winnie e pooh and tigger again =x

In e middle , e long present wrapped wif yellow n pinky wrapping paper was from... Ah Boy & Family , it is a pink pouch tat look elegant.

Infront of Ah Boy's present was a gift from another sister of mei's frens , she gifted a (donno e name of e cartoon) Cartoon handphone holder.

Left wif 3 presents on e right side , E one leaning on mei's pillow was obviously from ME !!

Tat is a foldable box , most suitable for mei :P and infont of it , e black color wrapping paper prsent was also from ME !! E lamp tat has a little boy's figure. Shall take a pic and show ur later on.

Lastly, e most front present , wrapped wif precious moments was a gift from Dar to Mei.. It is e CD ( Show of Korean F4 ).

So nice right ? Mei received so many presents. On top of tt , she received more Ang Bao tat presents. Which one u perfer , mei? Ang Bao or Present ? For me , i will choose Present. :)

Look , Ah Boy pose as i asked him to , told him tat i want to take a pic of him :) Behind him was my aunt , talking to my mum =p

Boy , I love to see e "du du zhui" on ur face :) tat is e most adorable part of u.

Still gt a few pictures of cake and family photo but sadly it is nt wif me , cos i was asked to take pic wif family , shall take it from cousin if possible and upload here again :)

Happy Birthday , Mei !!

2009-06-19T11:01:00.001+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday , Xin Lei :)

First time celebrating her birthday..

Mum decided to hold a birthday party at home for her.

Dar was e first one who got her a present , i guessed.

Dar's present for her was korean F4 Show part 2, while i didnt noe wat to get her until this afternoon..

Was supposed to report for work today, thought it was pay day but end up we had mistaken.

Aunt then told me to go on leave today woahhh shiok :)

Was at Northpoint wif mei before i was told nt to go work today.

Requested meimei to come Northpoint wif me to sign up for a M1 line =p

Wanted her student plan =p

Mum chosen a number for me , i didnt get any headset cos i was still in a dilemma, which to choose between both e phones tat i like.

End up , i decided nt to get phone first , go home & think properly :]

Mum & Mei went home first as i still wan to do some shopping.

Heard from mei tat she like a music box which she saw in AMK Hub, i then went down to take a look, had the intention to buy tat for her.

However , i didnt managed to find tat. I buy her a foldable box instead.

Went to another shop , saw a lamp , it's figure was a small naked boy.

Looks interesting !!

And well , so cute lo , even show "bird bird" on e small naked boy and its function is... a switch for us to on and off e lamp.

Wrapped both e presents for her and went back to Northpoint.

Felt so thirsty and went to Mac while on phone wif Dar. To my surprise , i saw GuGu & cousins.

We took bus back to my hse tgt :)

Mum prepared a lot of food and dessert for e day.

Mei also invited her frens over to our place , but juz a few of them onli zz.

Ah Boy & Family came too :]

I followed him e whole night , taking care of him , keeping him company and feeding him too.

Tat was e most enjoyable part.

He is soooooo CUTE.

He said " jiejie , happy birthday" to me , without realising tat i m nt e birthday gal.

Tat is wat a child is like :)

Feed him cake , water and play wif him, super enjoy every moment wif him..

When we are all busy chatting , he sang a song.. ( Ni Wa Wa )

I hurried ask everyone to SHH.... and listen to him.

After awhile , i requested him to sing me tat song once again , cos i wanted to record !!!

But damn it , e room was juz super noisy tat i cant do e recording !! Shit.

Boy cant bear to go home when it's time for him to go.

He keep saying " NO" , my heart feel so sour..

Try to houmor him wif a toy car tat i buy for him and managed to get him moving.

Kissed him goodbye , he kissed me on my cheeks too :)

Miss u ~!

After he left , i seemed moody , went for a bath and called Dar.

Helped mum wif mopping e floor after everyone has left.

Not so tiring afterall , cos our hse is far smaller compared to e previous one =x

Had an early night at 12am plus.

Will upload pictures tml , now too late le =p

Wat a pity tat Dar was unable to come due to GUARD DUTY again :(

:)

2009-06-15T17:45:00.002+08:00

Have nt been able to have a good rest last sat till now.

Sunday , after funeral , went home.
Had a rest on my bed but could not get to sleep.
Until 6pm , Dar called and we meet up at northpoint.
He buy me pasa malam food to eat. =)
Went to NTUC for shopping =x
Didnt buy anything cos Dar was so fussy , insists to use watever brand he likes.
Took train to Causeway point , wonder wat to eat for dinner?
Had KFC cos it was not so crowded lols.
Could not finish e food , i guess i order too much =x

Dar went off b4 i finish my food , he asked me to stay on and eat slowly while he go home to get his stuffs back to Causeway to meet me. I didnt say anything except "orh". =p
Went to NTUC to help Dar buy his facial wash foam & wet tissue :)
Meet up wif Dar at Bus Interchange and took 969 to Tampines.
Every Sun i will 99% try to accompany him take bus to Tampines :)
Wat a sweet gf u have gotten , Dar !!!
Took e same 969 tat i ride on earlier on back to Yishun. LOLS.

Dar..
Sorry tat i didnt have much time to accompany this week, i noe u nv blame me too but i feel tat this weekend is so short !! cos i spent alot of time on funerals , but is a no choice thing =x
5more days b4 u can book out again =p hahas.
Thanks for ur love & care :)

Life Is So Fragile.

2009-06-15T17:34:00.000+08:00

Sat , reaached home , didnt sleep.

Instead , on maple & play wif Dar & help mum to dl her shows too.

Managed to take a short nap (1 hr plus) before i go down to Hougang wif parents.

Go hougang for? O.o

My father's godfather's funeral.

We were asked to pray and follow wat e priest were doing.

Rounds and rounds , walking a circle around e wake.

As i was walking , i was thinking something else in my mind.

I had so far been to 2funerals only , this was obviously e 2nd one.

Thinking to this point , i realised there are more to come.. I don mind bad or wat but seriously there are still many more funerals i have to attend in time to come.

Both sides grandparents are still alive , my "tai ma" is also still alive.

My dad's godfather's children n grandchildren , most of them were crying.

My mum cried as well on e day when his body was burn to ashes.

I didnt drop a tear , cos i wasnt close to him but thinking of this , i wonder hw sad i will be it's my close one ?

Suddenly , i feel tat life is so fragile.

No one noes wat will happen tml?

Anyone can die anytime anywhere and for any reasons.

When will it be my turn?

Will i get to live to an old age?

So, i have to cherish everyday and everyone. =(

E whole funeral make me feel so...

Wat if it is my mum?

I m really afraid. So mum , can u live on for us no matter wat happens?

Even if u have any illness , promise me tat u will fight it , overcome it.

I noe y u refused to go to A&E , no matter hw painful u were feeling in e night.

I understood it.

Afraid tat u might nt have a chance to hold a party and celebrate wif mei on her bday.

I feel hw u feel too when u told me.

U said tat u have to hold a bday party for her juz in case u don hav a chance to. U said tat 1 yr is veri long for u. But mum, perhaps it is nt cancer ?

I refused to listen to uncle whenever he mention to me abt u and cancer in e car.

Sometimes i feel tat i m avoiding e issue too.

I hope 1st july can come asap & let everything turns out fine.

Simple & Sweet.

2009-06-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

Friday , Dar was waiting for me at home when i m at work.

Planned to go town after i knock off from work.
End up , I was requested to stay back for OT , doing some quotations.
Set off from office at 9pm, only to reach home at nearly 10pm.
Bath and rest , phoned Dar, wondered if he is angry wif me ?
Surprisly , he wasnt angry but he juz feels tat it is already too late for a movie at town.
We meet up at Yishun MRT and went down to town for midnight movie.
Thanks Dar :)

Reached town , abt to buy tickets for e show " Drag me to hell" , Dar then suggested to watch something else.. Dar said tat he feels tat " The Taking of Pelham 1 2 3 " is not bad.
So we changed to tat show instead.

Buy a set of combo in to eat n enjoy e show.
It was really a nice show i muz say.
Somehow i feel it is touching & meaningful ?
But donno hw to explain y is it so...
After movie , Dar & I were wondering if we should take Night Rider or Cab?
End up , we decided to stay in town till morning.
Went to park lane to take a look but we nv play lan gaming.
Walked around e town and stopped at a place to rest , talk & patou =x
Until around 4am , we went back to parklane for lan gaming.
I wanted to play Maple !! But they nv patch e latest version so sickening !!!
Dar.. he of cos play his favourite dota game , while i'm left with no choice , played Audition :(

Played till we actually forget abt e time and we were nt sleepy at all LOL.
Until 8am , we then realised we already played for few hours F3
Decided to stop as e person-in-charge wanted to restart com for awhile..
Took train back , sleep throughout e journey until reached yishun.
Woke Dar up and kiss him goodbye.
Reached home at 9am+.
Didnt head to bed , on laptop instead and played maple.

Dar..
I enjoyed e day veri much :)
Glad tat u bring me out for movies despite e fact tat u were sick and it was late.
How nice would it be if we can have such dating once every month.
U noe wat i enjoyed most , dont u ?
Being able to cruddle in ur arms , hand in hand wif u is e sweetest of all.
But don forget hor.. u will be punished e next time if u forget ur ..... =x
Sorry too for showing u attitude when u phoned me when i was in my office.

It is e love tat u gave me brings me courage to live on happily.

Dar's on MC.

2009-06-12T11:07:00.000+08:00

So fast.. Another week had passed and today is already wed.
Didnt have time to blog, had been busy wif work.
Back home , i need to accompany my mum n Dar too.

Last thur, Dar was booked out.
Had rushes all over his neck and face.
Feel so heartache while watching him scratch. T_T
Meet up wif him , he was late cos fall asleep lol.
Waited for him at Causeway Point , shopping alone.
Saw e CD of korean F4 show , my mei wanted it for present.
But i don have any $ wif me , lend to uncle le ><
Dar reached as soon as he could & i drag him to e CD shop to see e CD.
Dar paid for it and tat is e present for my mei , from us :)

After tat , we went to pasa malam.
Bought some food to eat but there wasnt any place for us to sit down.
We went into e shopping mall instead and found ourselves a place to eat. LOL.
After eating , we spend sometime talking to each other.
Hw nice it is ti have him by my side.
Went to e toilet b4 we head home.
E whole shopping mall was so quiet and e toilet's lights were off.

Kissed goodbye and we separated ways.
Back home , we mapling tgt for awhile b4 going to bed.

2009-06-08T15:13:00.001+08:00

Fri afternoon , Dar booked out from camp.
Changed his guard duty wif his friend.
He waited me from 3pm - 7pm while he spends his time in e acrade.
Finally get to see him again after 12days but he look so tired.
Had a field camp and road march e day b4 (thur)

Went to Tampines Mall's Swensen for dinner.
He had Fish & Chips while i had Breaded Chicken.
Half way eating , we exchanged plates.
LOL, I perfer his while he perfers mine.
Intend to help my uncle to book air flight after dinner but we couldnt find e place.
End up , i suggested to go home.

Back home , we both played maple tgt.
I forget wat time we went to bed but surely after 2am.

2009-06-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

Wed 3rd june ( if i m nt wrong )

My mum finally went to e doctor.
She has been having stomach ache problems since early this yr.
Unable to eat well.
Everyday going to e toilet for at least a few times.
It don seemed like it is a normal sign.

After work,
In uncle's car, Aunt called Uncle when we are on our way home , told my uncle abt something regarding my mum , i overheard their conversation. ( Aunt's talked too loudly)
Aunt told my uncle tat my mum went to e doctor early morning , told e doctor abt e problem she is having and well , e symptoms turns out to be wat my mum has been worried abt.
Tat is "wei ai" stomach cancer? ( not sure wat it is in english term )
However , it was highly suspected only , needs to go through tests to confirm.
Doctor refer my mum to polyclinic cos it's cheaper.
But.. polyclinic give my mum e date 1st July.
So longggggg from now..
(Touchwood) But if realli is cancer , wait for tests & results , it might be too late.
Or it might already delay e treatment.
But no matter hw angry i m , i cant afford to pay for her to go for a private one.

Called Dar and told him abt this straight after i m awared of it.
He comforted me in a way tat e results might be a negative one.
Afterall , it is not confirmed yet.
I hope so.
Didnt really have mood tat night , mum was out till 4am.
Didi & I waited her to come home.
I was more of worried for her den wondering y she haven reach home.
Finally get to slp well after she reached home.

A short message for u , my mum.

I m aware of how much sufferings u have been through.

I m aware of how much u had done for us , for e family.

I m aware of e love , care and concern u have in us.

Always there for us , showering us wif all u have.

And when i needed most support from anyone , u gave e most.

U gave me moral support.

U respected my decision , even though everyone dont.

U protect me no matter wat happens.

U bear e scolding and nagging for me.

From tat , i have seen everything clearly.

Mum is e BEST.

Mum , u r e only one who stay by me , take care of me , support and respect my decision to e veri extend.

Thanks for everything.

I hope u will be fine , Dearest Mum.

2009-06-08T14:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
Seemed like it has been long time since my last post.

From 25th May till today 8th June..
Many things happened.
I was sick , lost my voice for 4days since 2weeks ago's friday.
Unable to speak to boss when i m in office.
My Dar was being confined on tat weekends too.
So i stayed home for both days , be my mummy's gal.

Mum was sweet enough to boil ginger tea for me.
I drank 2 cups on fri night.
Recovering slowly..
Vomitted several times cos gt alot "tan" deep inside my throat.
Finally recover my voice on sunday.

During tat few days , I had difficulties talking to Dar.
Mum make fun of me too by learning e way i try to speak out despite no voice.
Mei and Di were stared by me a few times when keep asking me things.
I couldnt scold them cos i have no voice -_-" .
Dar was considerate enough, knowing tat i tried veri hard to talk to him and e fact tat i wont say i want to hang up even though i m feeling fed up or sick of unable to speak, he keep ask me to drink more water den talk or sms.
A few times , i reali cant take it, told Dar tat i wanna rest le cant talk , he understand and say is alright. He turn his attention to PSP. LOL.

Voice was back on sunday night :)

Book In Day.

2009-05-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

Sunday

Dar & I stayed at home till 7pm.
Waited for e bus 969 to come , meet Dar inside e bus.
Went Tampines, had a simple dinner at Century Square (if i m nt wrong =x)
As usual , Dar go for his arcade gamings while i go to Shop & Save.
Went secretly to get Dar some instant noodles and a drink of cos.
After he moved house , i don go his place le.
And cos of tat , we nv get to buy instant noodles tgt b4 going back his house.
(Something which we used to do).
And i forgotten abt reminding him =x always.
Didnt get him tom yam , guess he don like tat so much.
And i don wan him to sweat when eating in his bunk, sure veri uncomfortable.

Went to arcade and waited for his game to finish.
He won e other guy a couple of rounds but cos of e time ,
He purposely lose to e guy and walked off.
Is time for him to go back camp!!
He took cab instead of bus.
Kissed goodbye and i walked to e bus interchange.
Back home at 10pm + .

Had an early night , wan an all.
Wan an , Dar.

Wonderful day !

2009-05-23T22:56:00.000+08:00

Today, Dar and me went to town.
Bugis , Suntec City ,Marine Square and Bishan.

Went over Bugis to buy e USB internet thing for my office.
Before tat , went to temple to pray.
I didnt go in, Dar went in alone.
Following , we went for Tom Yam lunch.
I simply love it. :)
I noe Dar cannot realli tahan spicy.
He was sweating while eating ( though there was air-con )
I get him drinks :) get him tissue to wipe off his sweats too. Sweet bah?
After getting e thing i need , we went to Suntec City.
Reason was because of e maple event.
OMG , alot alot of ppl were there.
I even saw pregnant lady queueing up to buy PPC (prepaid cards).

Nothing much.. Guess we went on e whole day lols.
Went to Marine Sqaure , shop and gaming.
We played our own games :)
Dar finished his game earlier den me.
Thought he will ask me to giv up e game and go for dinner , but he didnt O.o
Instead , he sat beside me and play PSP while waiting.
Out of arcade , walk past a lady , she stopped us , trying to get us to start up a saving programme wif them.
Luckily , i say i m a student wif limited allowance.
Then , they turned their target to Dar.
No way Dar can lie cos he looked exactly a NS guy.
So much funny things happened during e chat wif them lols.

Last stop was Bishan.
Dar accompanied me to get my pills.
But end up , i realised sat is only opened to 12:30pm.
Had our dinner at Yoshinoya..
Simple dinner and we were so full.
Again , went for gaming.. Dar's favourite.
But nwadays he wont play so long le.
After 1 game nia , he feel so bored and left e arcade.
My shoes !!! Spoiled in e acrade.
Unable to walk properly cos e "mouth" of e shoes was opened !!
Dar looked around finding a pair of shoes for me :)
I juz stand aside and wait for him.
Saw a pair of slippers at e 2nd floor, not bad and i brought it.
Reason was mainly because it was cheap and there are no other choices.
Onli left wif level 1 but e time was like going 10 le .

Changed into e new pair of slippers , i told Dar i m nt used to it =x
And he suggest to take back e pair of spoiled shoes for me to wear from e rubbish bin.
Took train back , Dar rejected fren's request to watch midnight movie.

Dar, u noe mah ? u were so sweet juz nw. Feel so blissful being wif u.
Muacks ~!

MC - Allergy ~!

2009-05-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

Woke up early at 10am.
Feeling so itchy all over my face.
End up , my face turned to be like pimple face.
Cos i scratch and those rashes come out?
I donno hw to describe it. =p

Took a cab immediately to AMK.
My family doctor , Dr Chua.
He said my skin is so sensitive, especially to dust.
And well.. e giddness going on in me was realli ear fluid imbalance.
Caused by inner ear.
He prescrible me wif some pills and 3 types of cream for me to use on my face & body.
E nurse asked me hw come so many kinds of cream, lol and she was blur too.

Went home by bus and train.
Didnt get to contact dao Dar.
Cos he was still slping like a PIG.
Spammed calls and sms, but no use.
End up , he called me at 3plus telling me tt he juz woke up -_-"

Meet up wif Dar for a dinner at KFC.
I only took some cheese fries.
Diet is realli veri tough.
Dar also renewed his M1 line and changed plan.
Gotten himself a new hp C905.
He asked me to use it , cos he cant bring camera phone to camp.
Dar intend to bring me go for a movie but we were too late.
9+ time slot over le , if were to watch 11+ will hav to cab home again.
We went for gaming instead.
I watched Dar play his games.
And we part off at Yishun MRT.

Our 50th Monthsary :)

2009-05-21T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hahas , e title of my post sound so funny.
Cos of e 50th.
But is right ar , 4yr 2months = 50months.
LOL.

Just now meet Dar at e bus stop located at Yishun Mrt.
He walk straight towards e Mrt Station without noticing tat i m juz at e bus stop.
I chased after him and.. tapped his shoulders.
He turned back and realised is ME. =p
We didnt get to go anywhere , cos it was already 11pm +.
Feeling thirsty , Dar bring me to Cheers to buy drinks.
2 Bottles of Pokka = $1.95
Of cos.. i.. drink winter melon !! while Dar drink Mint Green Tea.
Keep asking me to giv it a try.
I tried b4 le, Dar. u are so forgetful. lol.

Went to his old house downstairs , sat down and chit-chatted.
After awhile i suggest Dar to go somewhere else. ( "Lao Di Fang" )
Had some sweet moments together.
Something happened also. LOL.
About a lao ah pek. =x
Argh.. we enjoy each other's company until we forget e time.
Last train for Dar was already gone.
Left with no choices , of cos take cab la :]
Dar insists to send me home by cab first b4 he go back.
Actually i can take bus de, only 55cents for me, LOL.

Back home..
I called Dar.
He was still in e cab , of cos.
But i nv chat wif him :P
I went for a bath.
Stinks.. cos i sweat whole day in office.
E aircon is old le , not able to work well liao.
Dar chatted wif me for awhile and i went off to bed.
Don think he went to bed too bah, sure playing DOTA.

Thanks Dar, Muacks.
I love it all.
Every single thing we do tat night.
Every single place we went tat night.
Simple and enjoyable plus doesnt costs $ at all.
Most importantly is.. it brings us closer.
It will be well remembered by me.
Hopefully u will rmb it too.

Happy 50th Monthsary ~ 210509

2009-05-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

Sunday

We meet up in e evening.
Accompanied Dar to e doctor cos he was nt well.
After tat , we headed to sunplaza again.
Had mee siam for our dinner.
Supposely.. wanna to re-new Dar's contract,
But e queue was like so longgggggg...
Den end up we havent think of wat phone to get so we went off.
His serg called him.
He was MC for 2days and was supposely to go back on mon night.
Serg told him to go back at 8 on monday.
We simply thought it was 8pm..
But...it turned out to be 8am.
Stupid PC Serg...
He phoned my Dar early morning on mon & asked y he is nt yet back camp.
We then realised it was 8am nt 8pm.
So sad.
So stupid.

Dar was telling me on e cab tat most likely gt important things.
I believed so.
But.. Actually..
Nth. *Angry*
Dar juz went back cos e serg wanted so.
End up , Dar spent e afternoon slping in his bunk ,
Worst of all was.. he have to eat his lunch inside camp
E food there was.." Yuckssss " , " Suck " & " GELI ".

Poor thing , Dar.
Bear with it.
8 and 1/2 months more to ORD.

Another promise between us.

2009-05-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

Dar and me meet up at Sembawang on Sat.
But Dar was late and i hated to sit down and wait,
So i went over to Woodlands Mrt to wait for him.
I was so blur again =x.
I went out of e station and waited for him.
Called Dar, he told me he was at e platform waiting for train.
Only then i realised i was at e wrong place. LOL
Dar laughed me.
Is ok la , blur also nt bad , at least i get to make him smile =)

Went to Sun plaza and had our dinner at e kopitiam.
We ordered Herbal Chicken and & "Si Chuan Cai" soup + 2 bowls of rice.
1 for me another for him.
It was a simple but nice dinner.
Only thing was , Dar kept complaining tat e herbal chicken taste salty today. LOL.
After dinner , he went for his arcade gaming as usual while i go for some shopping.
I buy a card for Dar and a photo album for us.
We seldom take photos and don realli like it.
Plus we don hav camera , nt even handphone de.
Cos his one is non -camera while mine already spoiled.
But we promised each other , we will take more photos and make e album full :)

10pm, e arcade closed.
It was still early and i asked where should we go.
Dar wanted to go for Lan Gaming and we went for it till morning 5am.
He didnt went home , headed to my home for a short nap.
Wanted to save down some cab fee.
I prepared a bed for him in my bro's room , with blanket & my dearest "baobao" for him to hug to bed.

Do you noe?
I love it when u r at my house.
Cos it has been so long we didnt spend a night tgt.
It has been so long i didnt get to giv a gd night kiss b4 u close ur eyes & slp.
It has also been so long tat i didnt get to wake u up in e morning & be e 1st u will see when u open ur eyes.

I m really enjoying every moment with you.

Nothing Else Matters.

2009-05-19T15:21:00.000+08:00

Is tuesday already :)
3 more days to weekends.

Last Fri..
I knock off at 5pm.
Took bus back to meet Dar.
End up Dar was still having his event,
So i went to kill time myself.
He went for basketball after finished his event.
At first , i was quite unhappy cos supposed to meet me de mah.
But end up when we meet at Causeway Point ,
I didnt throw temper at all , instead i juz "sa jiao" abit on him.
Told him tat i have yet taken my dinner, he agreed to share a meal wif me even though he was nt hungry, cos i was on diet :)
We had Burger King.
I was so so blur , i ordered beef burger without realising it was beef -_-
So stupid of me .
End up Dar finished it off for me.

Donno where to go..
Wanna to catch a movie , but somehow like e movies avaliable does nt interest us.
We went to playground instead.
Had some peaceful , sweet time over there cos it was juz so quiet.
I could feel e love from him.
At tat veri moment , i forgotten watever he said on wed night.
I wouldnt be bother abt wat he said too.
At tat moment , i looked into his eyes and i only saw myself in his eyes.
I only noe we r still as loving.
Past is wat has already over, while
Future is wat yet to come , therefore,
Present is most important.

I Just Want To Have You By My Side & Cherish You.

True Feelings.

2009-05-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah..
Friday again.

Weekends coming :)
So fast 5working days had passed.

I reached office today at 9am.
So early.. ya cos i wanna to knock off early too at 5pm.
Will be meeting Dar at Sembawang later on in e night.
Nth to do from 9am till nw.
Had been mapling and msn chat wif frens.

Dar,

After wed night, i feel so weird.
I suddenly wanna see u badly.
I donno wat to say to convince u wif my words.
But i think u will noe it someday.
My love and everything for u will be true and everlasting.
Muz have confidence in me and our this r/s.
Don feel tat i will leave u or do u wrong someday.
Don feel tat my feelings for u will fade off one day or i will leave u for someone better.
Cos u r juz so important and precious to me.
I really miss e 2days at ur place when u juz came back from Taiwan.
I hope in June we will be away for a short holiday , okie?
Afterall , i love ur honesty.
I like e way u be honest wif me for everything.
Muacks.

See u later :)

My weekends.

2009-05-12T14:33:00.000+08:00

Too much to post for weekends.

Last Fri , Dar and me been to YK hse to get Dota from him.
Stayed over at his place till midnight 1am plus.
Dar was having dota game wif YK and his frens.
Yk drove us home after tat.
Thanks YK :)

Sat , Stayed at home for mapling until night 7pm
Dar and me went to Tampines.
Had a walk in e pasa malam.
Nth nice, yet veri hot.
Dar was going back to his camp cos of Guard Duty.
Previous his fren helped him wif 1 weekend so nw is his turn to return him.
Back home chiong maple.
We were having our 2x still.
Chiong till 3am , feel abit tired.
Mei took over and spam for me for an hour.
Thanks mei :)
Both of us then headed to bed at 4am+.

Sun, woke up early at 7am to chiong e last bit of our 2x.
For both Bishop and Nightlord.
At e end of 2x , BS 167 and NL 131.
Great achievement ,hahas.
I only aimed 130 for NL.
Afternoon , helped my di on hb mule and i was watching tv.
Wanna to slp de but couldnt get to slp , donno y.

A fast weekend juz passed like this.
Again is working week.

Nice Fish & Chips.

2009-05-08T16:15:00.000+08:00

Mon , Tues and Wed had been working.

Meet Dar on alternate days only due to my working hours.
But Tues we meet too , cos wanna pass me e internet vodafone.
I went to Causeway Point and waited for him.
After tat we both went home and had an early night :)

Wed , i went to work in e morning.
Cos i wanna to knock off at 5pm so i can meet Dar for dinner and pass him vodafone as well.
End up , cos of some documents which need to be print immediately , i was delayed.
Luckily , when i reach Tampines Mall, Dar was still on e bus.
We were thinking wat to eat and Dar say he wanted some acrade gaming first.
So we headed to e Arcade , he play while i think where to dine.

After he finished his gaming , we both decided to have KFC.
Went over and zzz e cashier say closed le :(
We both then went over to Changi Market or donno where to dine.
Had Fish and Chips :)
It was a big share , and we were both full after sharing a plate of Fish & Chip.
E fish and chip was realli nice :)
Luckily , i listen to Dar , didnt order Hor Fun as well.

We took 969 back , Dar dozed off in e bus.
Can see tat he is veri tired.
Back home , we maple tgt till 2-3 am and i headed to bed.

Tired Day :(

2009-05-08T16:00:00.000+08:00

Had been a busy week for me :(

Sat 2nd May 2009

I stayed over e night at Dar's hse.
Woke up in e afternoon , went for lunch and back to Dar's house helped him wif some packing up.
He is moving house..to Woodlands.
Luckily , still near my place :)

I helped him to keep some of his stuffs first so it will be easier for him unpack his things.
Keep his report books for him and some important certificates too , afraid tat he might lose them or end up throwing them into e bin without realising.
When Dar and family start to move things out , i was there only looking cos Dar asked me nt to do anything.
Just wait there.
He don allow me to carry things for them or help to clean e place cos i was allergy to dust.
End up , i was there to keep an eye on his youngest bro.
His brother keep crying , i guessed he was afraid and wondering wat is happening ?
He cried again when he saw ppl carrying his diapers up into e lorry. Hahas.
So funny and cute.

When they were abt to set of to Woodlands , Dar accompanied me to e street to take cab and helped me wif carrying laptop and his things.

Back home , i took some snacks and started to tidy my room.
It has been a long time i nv tidy up my room le.
Keep Dar's things into my locker and lock them up :P
Cos those are all certificates and report books (important documents).

Stayed at home lying on bed , watching tv , killing time.
Waiting for Dar to be free and meet up for dinner.
Meet Dar at Northpoint around 8pm for dinner at Yoshinoya ?
( Did i spelled wrongly? )

After dinner , we didnt head for movies or gaming cos both of us were rather tired.
Dar and me , we both headed home.

Welcome Back , Dar.

2009-05-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

Welcome back to SG.

Dar was back on 30th april midnight 1am.
I cabbed over Dar's house and spend e night wif him.
We hugged when i alight from e cab.
Wat a nice hug it was..
After 3 weeks of separation.
Dar then took out 2 pink color shirt for me.
He buy them in Taiwan's night market.
I was happy :)
Cos it was a gift from him.

Back his house,
Dar went for a bath and talked to his parents for awhile b4 he get to pei me.
We went to bed str8 , but somehow cant slp lol.
So we chatted..till fall asleep.
He always nv fail to knock off b4 me.

Woke up in e afternoon on friday.
Dar was giving out gifts to his di and mei.
He then took out watch , i thought it was for his mei, when he say it was for me i was shocked O.0
I thought he onli buy me shirts? ( which is enough for me, already contented )
I nv imagine there are more.
After watch , he took out one by one slowly..
Bracklet , Necklace , Purse and Sweets.
E packet of sweets he buy for me , make me zzz & lol.
It look exactly like sanitary pads F3.

(to be continued.. Boss's back )

Continued..
I simply like e sweets and everything tat Dar buy for me :)
Thanks Dar.

STRESS !

2009-04-24T18:05:00.000+08:00

1hr plus away from nw i can go home le.. Weekends ~!

Dar..

Welcome back from field camp :)
I was so happy and excited when u sms me juz nw.
Know why?
Cos i met up wif a problem ytd night and today morning.
Ytd night , for some reason , i couldnt get to slp.
Stay awake until 4am , reading magazine..
Trying to kill my thoughts.

Morning woke up at 11am.
Went in maple take a look.
These few days cant online le bah.
Cousin Yu Xiang's Bday.
Changed my mind , nt bringing our laptop there le.
I wanna go there enjoy myself, let go of everything.
Juz nw , ur daddy called me.
Asked me abt u and talked about other issues too.

On my way to work in bus , i feel so stress..
Thinking of something which cant don think of.
Making myself feel so vexed.
As i was thinking , i realised i already reach e airport.
Juz nw.. when u sms me tat u r back , i was realli happy.
Called u immediately.. i need u to hear me out.
I need u to help me solve e problem.
But i guess u are busy.
Never mind , i wait for ur reply or call bah.
Finally i finished all e work necessary.

After i cleared up my desk , i went to toilet.
I opened e office's door , guess wat?
2 stray dogs were right infront of me.
Chua tio.. so scary.
Rubbish bin gt 8 rats too.
Wat a "clean" environment i m working in?
Often feel like quitting like my mum requested me to.
But soon this project will be finished and i will be out of job for 1-2months?
And when i think of $ matters and our plans..
I will tolerate and continue working while complaining everyday LOL.
U give me a lot of courage and strength to fight.

Afterall.. my choice is YOU.
I choose to be wif u.
Muacks.

Chomp Chomp !

2009-04-23T18:04:00.000+08:00

Dar..!!!

I want go Chomp Chomp EAT.

I want to eat Stingray.

I want eat it wif white rice.

I want eat BBQ Chicken Wings.

I want eat them all wif u.

I want to drink tat huge cup of Sugar Cane.

I want to eat till full full , " du zhi zhang zhang" wif u.

I wait for u to come back.

Promise ! we will go there eat :P

I Miss You.

I really miss u deep deep now.

Muacks.

Dar.. I sot le.

:) Vexed Out EVERYTHING.

2009-04-23T16:58:00.001+08:00

Dar..
Actually wanna write u a post last night when i suddenly miss u.
Yesterday night.. I suddenly miss u so much, hoping u r juz beside me.
Recently , i feel so stress.
I commit alot of mistakes in work and life.
Always get scolding from Boss.
Short pay , Documents matter and many more.
He cant find his cable de wire , come and ask me where i put..
I always put back in his drawer for him de.
Den hor.. Ytd..
One of his workers asked me to print pics.
I asked e worker if he wan 1 , 2 , 3 or 4 pictures in a paper..
I told him it could be done.
He replied tat he wan 1 pic in a page.
I did it in his way and when boss saw tat , scolded me off.
Y print like this ? So waste ink.
U donno hw to print 4 in a page ar like u always did.
I veri pissed off, told him tat was requested by his worker.
Den he say nv ask him b4 i print..
Feel so fedup.
How to ask when he is nt around?
And e pictures all are needed early 8am e following day.
260++ to print leh. ARRGGHH !
And..
Boss shoot me and scold me infront of his workers.
He say i m like sleeping when working.
Perhaps?
Cos i m tired.
Feel so tired.
It is not like this when u r wif me.
U will always comfort me , console me and teach me tatics to fight back :)

Dar.. Tues.. Our Monthsary :)
I went to doctor tat day at AMK.
Doctor said i m allergy.
Given me cream and pills.
Apply and taken pills for 2days , i feel totally healed. LOL.
But still need apply for e scars to be removed and to really cure it.
Hmm..
I haven start my diet until today. :P
Guess i need to do something to show u some improvements.
I told u i wanna do something for u de.

Day by day..
Thur le..
Tml after work , i will get to rest 2days.
Going chalet , Sat my cousin 21st Birthday.
Rmb? i told u b4 u set off to Taiwan.
I guess i will be brining laptop over?
If not hw to meet e target appointed by u leh. Hahas.

U know mah?
I have realli alots to tell u.
I wish to tell u on e phone but u wont call me de.
Cos exp !! I know..
If i complained u nv call , u'll always say : "Cos veri EXPENSIVE".
I called Starhub today.
They say there is a service where by u pay 59cents everyday and u can get to enjoy free incoming calls from overseas, meaning i can call u and u wont be charge wor.
How do u think abt it?
If realli subscribe , i think u will ask me call u every night bah.
Den i will be busy LOL.
But i don mind , i enjoy being busy cos of u :P
Suddenly feel so RELAX after writing to u here.
Vexed out my STRESS !!!
U wont noe hw pressure i m these few days.
Fill u in when u r back or when on phone wif u.

1 week ~ 7days ~ 175hours more to go..

Counting Down 10 Days.

2009-04-20T17:02:00.000+08:00

Dar..
Sorry..
Morning when u sms me abt u setting off for e field camp which is 4-6days long, i didnt reply.
Cos i was sleeping soundly.
I was too tired.
U waited for my reply?
I muz have disappoint u.
Ps :P
I... i will wait u back.
Lots i wan to tell u but i wan face to face..
Anyway, i was on phone wif ur dad juz nw.
Horhor u so bad nv phone him at all..
But nvm i helped u to tell ur dad tat u gt ask me to pass him e msg tat u went for field camp.
Time passed so fast , another week has passed.
10 more days and u will be back to SG.
Don forget my presents hor =x
Thanks for calling me last night when i told u i wanna talk to u badly.
I noe u don like to call back sg cos it cost damn expensive.
But for my sake, u did it.
Thanks.
You realli changed alot.

Somehow..
My life nw is in a mess.
Something is bothering me and i donno hw to solve.
Lost and Confused.
And recently , i had been feeling unwell AGAIN.
Giddy , tired and feeling nausea sometimes..
Feel itchy on hands , legs and my back.
Sometimes everywhere also feel itchy.
Comes and Goes.
Wat is wrong wif me?

I'm Sorry.

2009-04-14T18:17:00.002+08:00

This post is specially indicated to u.

(Someone who i hurted)

I donno if u will read this post but i realli wish to say sorry.

U r realli e last i would want to hurt but end up turns out to be e first i hurted.

I noe hw gd u r to me.

I noe hw u feel for me.

I noe hw sad , despair , tired & disappointed u r now.

Other than sry and thanks , i realli donno wat to say to u.

Sry for hurting u.

Thanks for everything u did for me and e memories u gave me in Maple.

I actually intend to juz leave u , without a reason , tat might be better.

But..

Somehow i still find an excuse.

I donno hw to ans u when u asked for a chance cos e prob lies in me not u.

I have a Dar le.

I can only be ur maple GF.

But i don think u will want.

I bet we cant be friends too le bah.

Cos e hurt i giv to u is too much , too deep.

I thought u will hate me , will shout or even scold me .

But when i spilled out everything , and when i hear ur soft voice , i realised hw deep ur love is.

I feel so guilty & bad,really.

Feel so bad tat i hurted a gd guy like u.

U deserve someone better in RL.

After today , i wont appear infront of u again in maple.

Wont sms or phone u again.

I will leave u , step out of ur life be it in real life or virtual.

Guess this will be a better way for u.

I will not forget u.

Take care.

Dear..

I Miss You.

2009-04-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

Dar..

I Miss You.

Though we can sms and talk few min on e phone, but i missed u.
Right now, i m abit vexed.
I wish u are here for me.
Every sms u send me , seemed so precious.
U told me tat e bed there was hard and uncomfortable.
I bet u missed my shoulder bah.
U noe mah?
It's been so long i never received a kiss or a goodnight from u in sms.
To me,
I feel every overseas trip u go for is like a test for our relationship.
Cos we are nt beside each other.
This will make us miss each other more bah , and bring us closer when u returned.
I hope this time round u wont sulk like u did when we meet on 30th night.
U gave me a sulk face e other time when u returned from Brunei , rmb?
I will blog as often i can if i have e time to , and u muz read it when u r back hor.
Every post in here is simply juz for u.

18days more. :)

I will wait for ur return.

2009-04-10T17:47:00.000+08:00

Dar is in Taiwan now.

His flight was on e 8th April midnight.
Tat day , i took a day off to accompany him for e whole day.
This was not e first time he is going overseas , i don feel so worry.
But this time round to Taiwan , 21days, with a 6days long field camp.
I stayed overnight at his hse tat veri night b4 he left.
I went to bed earlier than him , he was still having his gaming.
Midnight.. Half awake & Half asleep..
I feel Dar is beside me.
It is always so sweet when i m wif him.

Morning (8th April)
I woke up realising tat..
Someone called me many times, but i didnt ans.
Somehow i noe my phone was ringing in e night but..
I juz simply continue slping.
Too tired :/

Dar's family was all out except sister.
I went to e nearest coffee shop and simply juz grab mixed veg rice and mee siam.
One for him another for him.
And of cos cold drink..
He simply detest plain water.
I went to bed again after lunch but Dar woke me up b4 i had enough of my sleep.
I helped him to pack his bag as usual and top up a few top up cards for him.
Went for dinner at 8 plus.
And we dapao some food for his family.
He accompanied me , by my side till is time for him to bath.
We left his house tgt at 1030, he is leaving to e airport.
Before leaving , i took his hp and read his sms , was told in e sms tat Taiwan's weather is cold, and Dar was asked to bring a sweater.
I went in e house and get it for him , insists he muz bring and he juz follow my words.
He didnt giv me a kiss when we part , cos his fren saw us.
I went back home , bath and talked on phone.
I was on e phone wif Bubu when Dar called me.
It tooks me awhile b4 i hang up and call Dar.
Dar hanged up wif me at 2:20 and boarded his flight.
I lied awake till 5am b4 i sleep.

Happy Birthday To ME !

2009-03-25T18:31:00.000+08:00

Since last night.. when e clock strike 12am..

I receieved alot of happy bday mega & blessing.
Maple bf mega me thrice.. :)
So thoughtful of him , called me at 12 am and juz nw b4 12am he called me again..
He said he wanted to be e first and last person to wish me happy bday.
So silly.
I receieved a call from Vincent too in e middle of e night, wishing me happy bday.
And early morning , another sms from maple di.

Until 11am+..
I finally received a sms from a real life fren and nt maple anymore.
Surprisely , e first person who smsed me who i noe in real life was Nelson.
Actually he asked me out for dinner but sadly i had already had plans for e night.
Stayed at home till evening 6pm , didnt go to work cos i was on MC, due to skin allergy.

Went to Sembawang wif meimei and mummy.
We headed to Ah boy's house.
Bring him to Sun Plaza for dinner tgt.
He had become so slim and we feel so heartache.
He was so much different when at home and at outside.
I seriously missed him so much.
But i donno wat to say or play wif him when i saw him.
I feel so sad eveytime when i visit him and i realli wish tat i didnt move house.
I miss his laughter and cries.
I miss e days he wake me up , snatch maple wif me.
I miss bathing him , feeding him and bringing him to bed.

Boy..
I miss u.
Be good in school okie?
Eat more , learn more and play more.
Don forget me again =x
I will try to go over when i have e space time and i m looking forward for ur 1-day stay in my new house.

Happy 4th Anniversay !

2009-03-22T12:01:00.000+08:00

21st March 2009

Our 4th anniversary.

Dar..
I love & enjoyed all the activties we had, though we had a simple day without any movie shows.
Thanks for the couple rings :)
Mickey & Minnie.
I really love it.
Thanks for bringing me to a "1day honeymoon".
I love it so much.
Made me feel tt only u matter.
Made me feel tt e only world only have e two of us.

I wish we can be like this everyday.

3 more days !

2009-03-18T18:05:00.000+08:00

Ytd night..
I was veri moody.
Veri upset over work issue.
I was asked to bring home work to do..
Recently i keep busy wif works.
Bringing work home to do in e night and even on weekends.
Tat time even cos of work throw temper on Dar.
Suddenly, feel like changing job.
But of cos though i complain , i still do my work.
Other than nagging , complaining to Dar and frens , there are no other ways for me to cool me down.

Dar was so sweet to me.
I was complaining tat my bday falls on e wed and i don think anyone will be accompanying me to dine on tat day bah, den Dar told me he wan to take OFF on tat day and is trying to.
Hopefully he can realli took OFF on tat day :)

Bet Dar is having his Night's Out nw..
Counting down..
Another 3days.
We had planned our activites on tat day and..
I m quite excited and looking forward.

Hmm.. Off to work le , boss is back :(

I m juz so happy.

2009-03-17T18:58:00.000+08:00

This post is specially for u only.

Dar..

Today i feel so happy.

U realli maked me feel so loved by YOU.

4 more days to Our 4th year Anniversay.

I m looking forward.

Dar..

U make me feel with YOU around , nothing else matters.

U make me feel my presence in this world is meaningful.

U maked me feel i m far fortunate compared to others.

U make me feel everything is WORTHY.

I LOVE YOU.

Grats Dar 120 4th Job NightLord !

2009-03-16T18:33:00.000+08:00

Weekends over again :(
He booked in back to camp.
But we had a nice weekends.

Meet him at 7+pm in e night..
He was angry wif me.
And i went home.
After awhile he cooled down and we met again to go Chambers together for gaming wif Nel , William , DingJie , Alex and as well as Melford.
Went home at around 1am plus..
We buy 40k a cash and was given a gift in audition.
Have yet helped Dar to redeem e gifts.
I went to his place of cos..
We watched horror show tgt.
I fall asleep as soon as i lie on e bed.
Had a tired day.
Cos i trained his hermit since 3pm.
This was to compensate him for losing my temper on him.
I left him a slot beside me, but midnight when i reached out my hands searching for him..
He was nt by my side..
I woke up and went to e living rm..
He was still having his DOTA game !!!
I don feel angry , seriously!
But i feel heartache, i don like him to stay overnight over gaming.
He didnt slp at all till 7am +
Cos i keep waking up in e night to look for him.
Nagged at him :)

Sat morning when i woke up..
He was sleeping soundly in e living rm with a bed on e floor.
I covered e blanklet for him and i went to work.
I was requested to go back on sat to help them type out some documents cos i was MC on fri.
Haiis , sometimes wat i don like abt this job was..
I was sick and i was asked to come back.
Yet..no matter hw unwilling or sleepy i m , i still went.
And finished everything onli in e afternoon 3pm+.
Went back to meet dar and headed for lunch or rather dinner le :)
Dar had curry chicken rice while i had Chicken culet wif mushroom sauce.
Trained his char wif BR.
Until..

Around 12am+
I cabbed home , while Dar stay at Chambers for dota game wif Mel & Di.
I on my lappy and house laptop to use BS train his hermit.
Trained till he lvled 119 , i packed up , off e lappy and cabbed back to Chambers to meet him to go home.
Back his house..
His dad was still awake at living rm reading newspapers.
We feel so paiseh for returning home at such a late time 5am +.
We fall asleep as soon as we lie down lols.

Sunday..
Booking in day for Dar..
We stayed at home and had lunch wif his family.
Sometimes i realli feel i m part of their family too le.
They are always nice to me, treating me like a daughter of theirs bah?
We went to Chambers again and Dar lvled 120

Grats Dar 4th job finally NightLord le Muacks.

We had simple dinner at a coffee shop near his place.
And we walked tgt off to Northpoint and kissed goodbye.

Moody !

2009-03-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

Dar..
This post is for u to see.
For me to vexed out cos i m feeling fan.
Now is 00:51am..
I m abit sleepy yet i cant slp.
My mind is full of thoughts.
Wondering..

Wat happened?
Can u tell me?
Y is there a sudden change of attiude in u?
Why treat me so coldy when talking to me on e phone?
Is there anything happening to u ?
Camp ?
Family?
Us?
I realli donno and i wish to noe.
I wan to share ur burden wif u.
I wan to share ur troubles wif u.

Surely something is wrong wif u .
I know it , i understand u too much le.
I m sure something is wrong or something had happened?

No matter wat..
I will be here to hear ur trouble , help u solve ur prob.
Rmb to call me tml when u r better :)
I m waiting hor ^^
Hope tml will be a better day for US !

Dar Is Sick !

2009-03-10T16:38:00.000+08:00

Dar smsed me in e morning..
Told me tat he at medical centre "diao shui".
I was shocked.
Yuan lai he was dehydrated.
Diao shui from 7am till 5 or 6pm.
I feel so heartache when i see him so sick and alone at e sickbay.
Dar smsed me and told me he was so so boring.
I asked him to take a rest , go and slp.
He replied me tat he had been slping since morning 7am +.

Back from e medical centre , he had no choice but to eat instant noodles cos he missed out his dinner.
Had a talk wif him till 11+ 12am..
Then i came in to blog.

Dar..
Promise me u will take care okie?
Don fall sick till u have to diao shui , i noe hw it feels like..
Sure xingku.
I promise i will make u drink lot and lots of herbal tea for ur body to cool down !
Muacks Dar..
Have a gd night :)

2009-03-09T17:08:00.000+08:00

Sun..
We woke up in e afternoon.
Had Long John Sliver at Golden Village cos i wanted to eat tat ^^
Dar accompanied me to eat tat despite e fact tat he don like.

After lunch.. same thing..
Lan Gaming !!
Luckily both of us have e same lifestyle lols.
We went and scrolled items in Maple.
But didnt realli achieve wat we expected.

Played till 7pm+ ..
Is time to go back cos Dar is booking in at 10pm.
So we went to Chong Pang and helped his fren to buy somethings.
End up..
He didnt have enough time to dine wif me b4 booking in.
We both then da pao duck rice back to our own place to hav it alone, sian !

Back home.. i had a bath b4 eating and couldnt finish it , so RARE ! lols
Maybe due to heavy flow of mense bah.

Had an early night at abt 12 midnight. :)

Don Leave Me Alone.

2009-03-09T16:38:00.000+08:00

Sat..
Early morning i woke up and headed to his place..
He was still slping.
Out from toilet, i feel so unwell..
To my horror, i was having heavy flow.
I rested on e bed awhile and i felt better after sometime.

We went to Chambers for some gaming b4 we headed to town to collect my pictures which are ready to be collected.
Cos i was taking long time to get e CD , he went to acrade , leaving me a sms to inform me.
After we gathered at arcade .. we went for lunch..
He had Herbal Chicken Soup Set while i had Deep Fried Chicken Set.
E set comes wif free flow of drinks and ice creams.
After we finished e main course , we went for our ice cream.
I took my cup wif me too.
I poured Pespi into e cup and added a scope of Chocolate flavour ice cream on top of it.
Back to our seat..
I asked Dar to try my drink , created by me..
But he refused to.
He say Eeeee..
I tried it myself.. nt bad lah. :)
Went to PS to shop..
I wanted him to go into a shop which sells bra and those women's stuff..
He refused and say it was so paiseh for him.

Took train back to Yishun.
We went home , intend to have a slp before we go to e lan shop for zak.
But.. he end up lying on my legs playing PSP.
Had dinner at his place, Crabs !! i love it..
After dinner , we went out to Sembawang to collect my work stuffs.
Intend to meet nel and guys for a talk but i had no time to..

Went lan at 11+ wanna to play for 1 hr b4 taking e midnight package but when Melford reached , midnight package seats are fully taken up.
So we remained in e VIPs room till 3am + after my zak..
Dar suddenly told me he was not well when i was heading to e Free Market to collect my zak share.
I then log off e com and pay for e gaming..
I didnt get to see him when i came out from Chambers !
Wondering where he was .. when i saw a guy sitting around e roadside.. i realised it was Dar.
He was trying to vomit , he told me he don feel well..
Wanna vomit but cant ..
Took a cab home instead of walking back , he refused to go home , afraid tat he might wake his parents up.
I went up his hse and get him some water.
After awhile he decide to go home..

Back his place.. I touched his legs , it was so cold , when i didnt even on e fan or open up e windows..
In my heart , i was so afraid , i was telling myself "Dar , don scare me , don leave me alone here."
So silly of me but seriously i was afraid when i saw his veri pale face.
Find him some medicine and took care of him , sit beside him , looked at him..
When he fall asleep , i talked to him.. scare tt he might leave me anytime.
Wat a silly thought.
But life is so fragile.

Dar..
Don ever scare me again ! :)

Y do i have to work even on weekends !!!

2009-03-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

Weekend is over again...

Fri.. i was realli tired , vexed and angry over many things.
Supposed to work 8-2pm half day cos i needed to attend one of my GuGu's wedding in e night.
End up i stayed in office till 5 pm, when i had nothing to do zzz.
I don like my working environment !! Seriously..
Reached home at 6pm..
Didnt get to rest and i straight went for a bath and headed out.
Tiring.. !
Took free transport provided by e hotel...
Hm.. E wedding was quite a grand one..
But i had no mood to take pictures at all wif cousins.
Talked over e phone wif Dar..
Had a long chat..

When e dinner was abt to end.. around 11pm
I received a called from my youngest uncle, telling me to go over his place after e wedding to collect some files home to work.
When i heard this , i was already quite unhappy..
" WAT .. want me to work even on weekends and without paid? And when i had already planned my weekends with all kind of things which i wanna to do when i don hav e time to on weekdays."
After e call.. i was feeling abit angry n moody.
Y didnt they ask me to do it in e morning or afternoon when i had nth to do..
Y need to wait till e veri last min on fri night , asked my uncle to pass to me and wan me to get it done and passed back to them by mon..! , when e document is such an important one for a meeting..

Dar comforted me on e phone when i was complaining to him abt all..
After e wedding , i went home with veri bad mood , and i had an early night.